Banana's Blog

Home Sweet Home

2011-07-13T11:01:00.003-05:00

Dad,
You are finally home. You are sitting in YOUR chair, wearing YOUR clothes, eating YOUR food. I love that home feels like home again. The transition hasn't been a piece of cake for you. Maneuvering around the kitchen with your walker has become an annoyance to you, the chair in the shower isn't ideal, and having me and mom follow steps behind you like stalkers can be smothering...however, you are home!!! The smile on your face has returned, the jig in your step (or shuffle) is more noticeable, and the sneaky crinkling of a bag of chips can be heard again. ahhhhhh....did this house miss you.
You and I spent all morning making phone calls to doctors, insurance companies, and the rehab center. I'm thinking we could run a telemarketing business rather well. Later, I found you crawling on the floor doing your exercises (and was impressed by your initiative). It has truly been a unique and eventful morning back home.
When we finally sat down together to relax, I began to share about all of the amazing blessings God has given our family during this time. I mentioned this story:
As I was on my run yesterday, I turned off my headphones and began to have a conversation with God. It began with my asking him why someone so faithful to Him could be going through so much financially, physically, and emotionally. I begged him to bestow some blessings on the situation and on you for all you are going through. I prayed for the house to sell, for your healing, and for strengthened spirits and favor. Then I got silent. So many things began to flood my mind- financial support from others, acts of kindness from those around us, your ability to walk again, and the strength of our family. I realized that He HAS supported us, given us favor, and blessed us.
You said simply this: "I have been blessed beyond what I deserve or had to give.
Don’t let Satan rob you of the reminders of how good God has been.
I also heard you on the phone with a friend (I wasn't eavesdropping!). You mentioned that you couldn't imagine walking through this without the support you have been given from family and friends, but also without the hope of Jesus Christ. I see it shining through you as you gain your strength and I am thankful you remind me to be aware of the blessings God has given us. It truly reminds me of the song "Blessings" by Laura Story:
"Cause what if your blessings come through raindrops
What if Your healing comes through tears
What if a thousand sleepless nights are what it takes to know You're near
What if trials of this life are Your mercies in disguise"

Amen, Dad.

Cabin Fever

2011-06-23T12:44:00.004-05:00

Dad,
We were finally given the green light from the doctors to get you ready to head to rehab! I'm so excited...and can only imagine how you feel. I sense your cabin fever. Does this describe how you feel?

Hopefully we will say "peace out" to Northwestern in the next day or so. You and I found it humorous when we discovered a "Patient Welcome" pamphlet on the counter in your room. I'm assuming you could write one of those for the hospital at this point. As soon you as are outta here I'm turning in my "city driving" badge and putting on my oven mitts. How does "Pizza Meatloaf" sound on the menu? (homemade, not hospital made!)

2011-06-22T19:38:00.002-05:00

Dad,
After sneaking you some frozen yogurt, sharing my goldfish crackers, and keeping both wheels of the wheelchair on the ground for our walk today, I think I earned your trust! :) You interrupted the silence in the hospital room today with a request for some devotional time. You listened and gave simple "Amens" and sighs of agreement as I read a week's worth of devotionals from my phone. The improvisation of daily iphone devotionals left the same impact on us both as reading from a renowned best-seller. It brought back to mind the number of mornings I would wake for school to find you sitting in solace reading your worn brown, leather Bible at the head of the kitchen table. Years later I realized that it was not only for our family, but also for daily bread for yourself, that you began each new day this way. Today I pray that our time together and the words from the devotional spoke to you and gave you daily bread to carry you through the difficult moments of doubt, worry, or fear you may encounter in your alone time within those hospital walls. May Christ meet you there and may you sense His presence strong and clear.

2011-06-19T11:51:00.003-05:00

Dad,
Today is father's day.
I love you more than words could express.
I love our BUTTERFLY kisses.
I love the way you scratch with your beard.
I love that I'm still not too big to cuddle with you in a chair.
I love how you laugh AT me...which for some reason I don't mind.
I love the way you always seem to have the answer.
I love the way you treat my husband as one of your own sons.
I love your wit and how you wiggle humor into every conversation.
I love the laugh that comes from your belly and shows all your teeth.
I love how REAL you are, always opening up to gentle give your true thoughts.
I love how you still wear black shoes with a brown belt.
I love how you let me know you are proud of me.
I love you'll do anything for a joke...including removing your teeth.
I love hearing you yell at the tv when our Cubbies are on...you are a realistic fan.
I love that you cry with me and celebrate with me.
I love how your arms go all the way around me in a Bear Hug.
I love how through this journey we have been on these last few months, you have never seemed anything less than the dad I have known and loved for 25 years.

Love you daddy.
Happy daddy day!

Love,
Squirt

Oops! You did it again!

2011-06-17T08:37:00.002-05:00

Dad,
Lately, you are always trying to make me an accomplice in your daring feats. Today, you were determined to get into a standing position. You proceeded to tell me that you were given the "ok" to try this with someone present. Your determination enabled you to get to your feet, yet at the same moment an alarm began to sound. "Way to go!" I antagonized. Sure enough, they were smart enough to place a "bed exiting alarm" underneath you. Although this was hilarious at the moment, I realized that this totally describes you! You are successful and an example because of this determination.
I distinctly recall a simple "hike" you once encouraged mom, Rich, and I to embark on while on vacation in Tennessee. This trail was supposed to lead us to a hidden waterfall. Flip-flops on our feet, clad in t-shirts and shorts, we began the hike mom promised would be "short and sweet." Three miles later and on a steep incline, I believe it was you and Mom huffing and puffing behind us. You pushed us onward, however, wanting us to experience the treasure at the end of our journey. After passing experienced hikers carrying their camel packs of water, we finally reached the gorgeous waterfall. You both gave Rich and I that "told you so" look and at that moment I realized that your persistence was part of your plan. You taught us that the back-breaking work, effort, and at times doubting moments, are all a piece of success.
Although I don't condone your "jail-breaking" ways as of lately, I appreciate and admire your innate desire to work for the prize. I believe this is what God sees of your life and why we are noticing the fruits of your labor growing so abundantly in relationships and support around us. Never give up. Never lose hope. Let go of doubt. Hold on to your greatest attributes, your determination, and the Father that guides us through seemingly never-ending paths to His unmatchable rewards.

We came a BIT more prepared years later:

Revived

2011-06-16T10:34:00.002-05:00

As I revisited my blog, I was amazed to realize how long I have been on "hiatus" from writing. It's surprising that whether you are on a mountain top or valley, life just seems to get ahead of you. It took what is going on in life at the moment for me to rediscover my passion for written expression. It is through written words that so many things can surface: emotions, events, and a storage place for present-day memories.

It is not a secret that things have been a bit unstable within our family. Dad is still in the hospital and doctors await further tests and developments before we can grasp what is going on his body. The beautiful Sidell twins have arrived and each coo and smirk melts our hearts. Finally, my third year of teaching, and first at the 5/6 level has come to a close. These past few months can be summed up in contradictory forms: successful, difficult, tumultuous, eye-opening, breath-taking, blessed.....

My over-arching goal of returning to this long-lost link, is to record both struggles and moments of joy that God places in my life during this journey we have begun with Dad. I'm hoping that these journal entries remind both dad and myself of how time in the valley is full of God's gentle whispers and kisses of His love and faithfulness.

Thursday June 16th, 2011

Daddy,
I've never wished for summer vacation more! As a kid we ached for pool parties & fireflies. Last night I sat on the back porch watching the fireflies and they seemed to have lost their luster. Antsy adolescents look forward to group dates, midnight movies, and shopping sprees. In adulthood overwhelming responsibilities outside of a career sometimes make a "vacation" seem bittersweet....as the word has lost its once attractive meaning. This year it has developed a whole new meaning. I wouldn't consider these next 3 months a "break" but as a "blessing" That word is much sweeter. I'm able to be here at the hospital with you. Whether I'm diving back into my final "Twilight" book, fiddling on facebook, or discouraging you from daringly leaving your bed for the chair, I'm enjoying every moment. I can be where our family needs me, when they need me. Never have I felt more honored to be a servant. You have always been that to your family.

Today you seemed alert and talkative. When you heard that rehab may mean several days, you were discouraged and your demeanor changed. I can't blame you. I shared how I've been held up by the song "Blessings", which exudes the message of the way that sometimes it takes rain for us to be reminded that God is our solid ground and through it we see evidence of his mercy and faithfulness. I pray this holds you up today and throughout this journey...no matter its length or course.

On a lighter note, I'm looking forward to the wheelchair ride you promised to let me steer you on today. Although I believe the phrase, "poppin' wheels" may have deterred you and dissolved some of your trust in me as a driver, I'm hopin' for more laughs today!

Amen

2009-11-11T05:59:00.002-06:00

I had heard the phrase "God comes through...even in the 11th hour." I'm sure that I have experienced this, but it's not easy to remember that when you are in the "valley." JP and I have truly learned to depend on Christ, and one another, this year. God is so good and He is faithful. He worked out every detail....and I will be teaching 3rd grade the rest of the year in a wonderful district! I have no idea how these wrinkles got ironed out, but I know who did it!

THANK YOU, JESUS!

Busy

2009-11-08T10:17:00.002-06:00

JP has been gone this weekend, on a guys trip to see Alabama vs LSU football. While he was enjoying himself, I surprisingly not only kept myself busy, but had a great weekend of ME time. It's not to be selfish for a little while.

Friday- spent the night at my grandparents. Got my grandma her Steak and Shake strawberry shake (we have that love in common). My cousins and aunt and uncle were there as well. God has obviously placed me at the school in Schaumburg at the right time. I'm able to stop and spend time with family, with absolute convenience. Grandma and I watched "The Proposal." I love hearing her laugh.

Saturday- Grandma and I made homemade Cavatelli (gnoochi). It was rather easy, yet time consuming. I very much appreciated my grandma taking her time and energy to do this with me. I have a high appreciation for those who used to homemake their own pasta, like my Grandma. Grandpa slept most of my visit. He sleeps a lot right now. Although this makes me sad, I know it's better to be asleep than to constantly struggle with his pain.

Later on Saturday, I went for a beautiful run in the nature center. It was great to clear my head! Then I went to a movie with my mom and mother-in-law. It's a blessing that these two enjoy each other's company and we have JP and I in common. The movie, "Couples' Retreat," was not so great.

Sunday- today's agenda included sleeping in, runnning with my sister, grocery shopping, and working on report cards.

This has been a ME weekend. Is that a terrible thing?

Taste of Heaven

2009-11-05T19:46:00.002-06:00

I'm spending the night with my grandparents tomorrow night. I can't get enough time with my grandpa, knowing I don't know how much is left. I have been praying for any opportunity to talk to him about Jesus. When I think about the idea of him in heaven, it makes me smile. The promise of heaven itself makes me smile....and I want to make sure that those I love, are there with me. (That includes you, Pipa).

Pipa,
I pray the Lord opens doors for me to introduce you to this amazing God. You introduced me to tastes of Italy,now I pray that I can plant the seed that gives you a taste(and promise) of an eternity in heaven!

Love,
your Precious

Ahhhhhhhhhh.......

2009-10-30T23:43:00.002-05:00

Why does home feel so nice when you aren't feeling well?

I can get through my day just thinking about cuddling up with a movie, hot cocoa, a blanket, and JP.

It sounds like the perfect way to make me feel better when I'm under the weather.

Only time will tell

2009-10-28T05:58:00.002-05:00

My Grandpa is not doing well. His doctor's are not saying much. He's beginning to talk about waking in the middle of the night with fear...complaining he is sick and when I ask how, he replies "my mind." It's so sad. I spoke quickly and reminded him that fear is not from God. I so want him to know and accept Christ, to live the time he has, in peace. We talked about taking things a day at a time, that God goes a step ahead of us. "When you are scared," I replied, "Read those scriptures verses we posted on your dresser. I pray they bring you peace and rest at night.
Not more than 10 minutes later, he and I discussed my job situation. I proceeded to honestly tell him I'm not sure what will happen in two weeks when I hand my classroom back to the lead teacher. He could sense the worry (and fear) in my eyes. He said, "remember....no worries. Right?" Although he went on to reassure me further, discussing housing options with him, and sharing his pride in my hard work, that phrase, "no worries, right?" followed me all night. He was right. I had just shared a devotion on taking things one day at a time, and fear not being from God, and here, that's how I have been operating. I'm glad, my Grandpa, who I am trying to lead to Christ, led me back to these reminders, and this truth, with that 3 word phrase, "no worries, right?"

Organizado

2009-10-21T18:30:00.002-05:00

Following the last post about my closet, I've decided I need to remain on the topic of organization...therefore, my goal being organization. I'm an "outside" organizer. The kind that is obsessive (at times) about things on the outside being organized. I pick and choose what I will be obsessive about, whether that be an edge being straight or decorative pillows all showing the same angle. But....I'd call myself a "Monica" because if you were to open cabinets, closets, files, folders, or a fridge, you would never guess that I knew the meaning of the word "organized." I need to be true to the term, truly making life easier on both the counter tops AND inside the cabinets. This may be a lifelong goal, more than a resolution. It could require a change in my lifestyle. With all of life's daily surprises popping up, especially as a teacher, it feels that this may be difficult to achieve.

Hang it up

2009-10-12T18:18:00.004-05:00

Some day, my closet with resemble this paradise (even if that means using an extra bedroom as the clothing storage haven). Until then, I'll have to organize the space I have.

I spent this Columbus Day discovering the bottom of my closet. I wish I could say that it was merely scratching an itch to clean, but fact is, it was my husband's complaining about the slow creeping of my clothes into the 1/8 of the closet he has left. (that and the several times my closet has literally torn the bolts out of the wall). After 3 hours of sifting and sweating through sweaters, shirts, slacks, and shoes, I managed to organize the mess.
While in the process I had trouble throwing out and sorting those things that I truly do not wear. There are so many things that I have saved, but forgotten why: bridesmaid dresses I will never wear again, purses that I have never used, shirts that I don't remember buying, and old letters from junior high friends.
I'm thinking it's about time to get rid of some of these miscellaneous items, if I can't recall why I still save them. So, my one beautiful sister who threw my bridesmaid dress out, won't mind if I decide to get rid of hers after 5 years, right?

What crazy thing have you found amongst your possessions, that you have been saving but can't remember its significance?

Why Hello There

2009-10-07T18:28:00.003-05:00

It's been a while. I've missed you so. I love using this spot to blurb, blowup, talk about a blowout, or share blessings. I've experienced all of the above during my blog sabbatical, but with not wanting to relive some of the not so wonderful moments, I'll just keep it short, sweet, and relative to today.

I'm enjoying fall, the changes both in weather and in my life, and cannot wait to see New Moon! (so random).

This pictures sums up the happenings during the absence from the world of blogging: crazy, inconsistent, exciting, and all worth the while!

More magic

2009-09-08T17:00:00.001-05:00

I had to include this one! I just found it and can't wait to try it!

Crock Pot Weight Watchers Recipes - Pork Tenderloin in the Slow Cooker

Weight Watchers points: 4 per serving.

Ingredients:

1.50 pound pork tenderloin
1 ounce envelope dry onion soup mix
1 cup water
3/4 cup red wine
3 tablespoons minced garlic
3 tablespoons soy sauce
freshly ground black pepper to taste

How to prepare the Tenderloin in the Slow Cooker:

Place pork tenderloin in a slow cooker with the contents of the soup packet.

Pour water, wine, and soy sauce over the top, turning the pork to coat.

Carefully spread garlic over the pork, leaving as much on top of the roast during cooking as possible.

Sprinkle with pepper, cover, and cook on low setting for 4 hours.

Serve with cooking liquid on the side.

Crockpot Magic

2009-09-08T16:50:00.003-05:00

I have found that with mine and JP's long days and busy work schedules, that a crock pot is my best friend. Here's the latest recipe I tried:

Weight Watchers Glorified Crock Pot Pork Chops
1 medium onion (chopped)
1 1/2 pounds pork chops
1/4 cup water
1 can cream of celery soup
pepper to taste

Put pork chops in bottom of crock pot, onions on top of chops, pour can of celery soup over onions, pour 1/4 cup water over all. Cook for 8 hours on low, or 4 on high. It falls apart. SO GOOD! (and I believe it makes 6 servings and is about 5 points per serving)

Color My World

2009-08-19T21:53:00.003-05:00

After trying my hand at painting and creativity, I've decided I am better at art than I thought. It was never my strong suit in school. I am a testimony to the misnomer that lefties are the more creative type. What a misconception. I thought simple abstract art would be easy and carefree, but when you put a perfectionist to the task, the task is daunting. I found myself perfecting each stroke and line, which is the antithesis of the specific art form. It was like revisiting my elementary school art room, where even the legs on my stick people took hours to make flawless (a detail I still cannot do easily today). I now remember why I do not enjoy art....I'm a type A personality. Art as a relaxation method? Try telling that to a Monica!

Needless to say, after hours of perfecting color tones....these are the products (original art, that I will never produce or attempt again).

(Special thanks to the second artists on this one, Sharon Sidell)

long time no see

2009-08-04T20:31:00.004-05:00

Dear Diary,

It's been a while since we've spoken. I've been so very busy. This summer has flown by. We have had weddings, celebrated anniversaries, vacationed, and entertained family and friends. Time flies when you are having fun. These things are what remind me of how blessed I am for love, joy, family, and provision. I love that God gives us excitement, relaxation, and celebrations to remind us to enjoy our life!
Thought I would give a photo diary of some of the summer's events.

celebrating our 1 year anniversary downtown

Vacation to visit JP's family on the Jersey Shore

Kim & Brent's Wedding

Cubbies game with my parents

4th of July (getting over my fear of sparklers)

shopping list

2009-07-14T20:10:00.002-05:00

I can never seem to stay stocked up. Between make-up, toiletries, and other necessities, I can't seem to make ONE trip! They always seem to go empty ONE AT A TIME! These are the most recent purchases I've had to make or will be making this week....

-foundation
-loose powder
-mascara
- feminine products
-hairspray
-conditioner
-shampoo
-eye makeup remover

Although I can live without these....I can't!

350 degrees

2009-07-07T19:45:00.002-05:00

I love trying new recipes or altering traditional recipes to be more nutritional. I try to enjoy less carbs......which is impossible for an italian!

I tried a new one today. I lightly breaded chicken breasts, baked them, and then laid them on top of a bed of spaghetti squash topped with spaghetti sauce. It was delicious and as you can guess, an alternative to chicken Parmesan.

On another note, a cute recipe I was given by a family friend is now going down as the most practical and easy in my cookbook...............

Roast Beef
1 Large Roast of Beef
1 Small Roast of Beef
*Place both Roasts in the oven. When the small roast burns, the large roast is finished. Easy enough

Singing a Song

2009-07-03T09:20:00.003-05:00

Been going through a lot of disappointments in the last few weeks. There are so many needs in my family, loved ones, and in my own life. Along with the many wonderful scriptures I have been handed, my Auntie Pam also gave me the advice of finding a song to sing. This one has been on the radio every time I'm in the car. Whether it's God's word to me, or simply overplayed, it has been ringing in my ears all week:

"There is hope for me yet
Because God won’t forget
All the plans he’s made for me
I have to wait and see
He’s not finished with me yet"

(Brandon Heath)

Little Quips

2009-06-27T13:36:00.002-05:00

A longtime friend of JP's family, sent us a little hello. Along with some salutations came a very entertaining marital comparison story for the heart of a wife:

"Keep the cave clean. They want the cave clean and spotless, air-conditioned if possible. Sharpen his spear and stick it in his hand when he goes out in the morning to spear that bear.
And when the bear chases him, console him when he comes home at night. Tell him what a big man he is. Then....hide his spear so he doesn't trip over it and stab himself in the morning."

Thought this was a cute story. Thank you Mrs. Ross!

Random Thoughts

2009-06-25T17:39:00.002-05:00

Some days I have nothing to write...nothing interesting, show stopping, or unique. I realized however, that my simple thoughts can often be amusing, weird, entertaining, or simply unusual. Before reading today's thoughts, my disclaimer is that they may be quite trivial.........

-Michael Jackson is dead? Maybe I should have done more pushing to do Thriller at our wedding! I think he looks more like Minnie Mouse than Mickey Mouse.

-When will our furniture get here?

-Was I supposed to put diced onions in the meatloaf?

-Farah Fawcett was in "Man of the house", right? What other movies was she known for?

-How hot is too hot to take a run?

-Can you defrost frozen potatoes? Can you even freeze potatoes?

-Is it normal to finish an entire bag of Goldfish by yourself?

-How long can I leave that spider web hanging? Which will happen first: I will clean it up or JP will clean it up?

-What other home accessories do I need?

-Can people notice minor wedgies when I work out? Should I pick it?

-Am I weird or are these types of thoughts.....normal?

Meet the Mouse

2009-06-02T21:29:00.003-05:00

While cooking dinner tonight my husband came home and informed me that we have a visitor. I wish this were a visitor I could "intentionally" cook a homemade meal for....unfortunately, this visitor was unwelcomed, furry, and the one who enjoys my leftover cooking crumbs unseen by my obsessive eye. Yes, we have a little Ralph S. Mouse.
While sitting on his porcelain throne this morning, JP apparently saw the rodent run across our bathroom floor. Although he claims he didn't even flinch, I can imagine any man caught off guard during their morning meeting in the "John", would jump on top of their glass chair to finish their business at a later moment.
Needless to say, I did much EXTRA cleaning tonight. I swifter, washed, and vacuumed all of the floors...and left the bathroom to my brave husband, (who should thank me for the extra time I've now awarded him in the throne room while he cleans). We put out a trap tonight and I have been tiptoeing around hoping that I will not have a run in with this visitor, nor his droppings. I am waiting anxiously, like a woman in labor, to hear the snap of the metal contraption that will send him to meet his maker. HERE'S HOPIN!

Sniffles

2009-05-12T10:36:00.002-05:00

Im home sick again for the second day in a row. Im bored! I feel like a bum! It's not the kind of sick where I can get up and be productive. At least I got a good night's sleep...thanks to good ole' NYQUIL!

My husband has been wonderful. He picked up my prescription and the fulfilled the craving I had for Jamba Juice. What a man! He even did the laundry and cleaned the kitchen. I should be sick more often!

On the other hand, it's so hard to be out of school. There's so much I know needs to get done and hate leaving it to someone else. I guess it's a good thing...I gotta let go every now and then!

Enough Said

2009-05-05T20:08:00.002-05:00

I read this verse in my devotions today:

"Enjoy what you have rather than desiring what you don't have. Just dreaming about nice things is meaningless; like chasing after the wind." Ecclesiastes:s 6:9

After all our recent talk about a car, a house someday, and new jobs, JP and I are using this verse to be thankful for the big and little we have now. We cannot see what God's plan or purpose is in the future, but we know God's plan for NOW!

keep it up

2009-05-03T14:21:00.003-05:00

JP and I are still in constant prayer for our jobs. I have such a hard time with JP working 13 hour days. I pity him being so worn out when he comes home. And my frustration with some situations surrounding my current position, probably doesn't help. I can't help but beg with God to open doors. I know that patience is most important next to trust. Today at church there was a faith promise pledge opportunity, which we hadn't thought of, but I admired how I toiled over an amount in my head all service, and when the time came, JP looked and me and being on the same page, we made a pledge. I love how we both have learned to look to God and to do more than share finances, bills, and hopes, but a foundation on Christ. Months ago there would have been much hesitation to put forth a faith promise pledge, and thanks to where God has taken us, and with such a willing-hearted mate, there was no hesitation this time. I know God has provided, erased bill balances, made a way, and I continue to trust that there is so much more he has in store! I pray that he multiplies our meager but sincere financial pledge.

Would you Rather?

2009-05-01T06:14:00.001-05:00

Would you rather
be able to stop time while you slept, or
never need to do laundry?

Would you rather
hit every red light for the rest of your life, or
always be wrong?

Would You Rather... Live forever as a
13-year-old or…
65-year-old?

BLEH!

2009-04-28T18:52:00.002-05:00

Had one of those days...I'm about to use the only metaphor for the type of breaking point I hit today, when all things come to a head: "Like when a really painful and irritatingly obvious skin imperfection finally makes its appearance on the skin in, forming a white head." That's what my day felt like today. I waltzed into the gym with a grudge against every machine I saw. Nothing seemed the least bit welcoming or kind. I've had bad days at the gym or workouts I could have loved more, but today the mirror and the scale seemed to dislike me. I had a terrible workout, but my trainer reassured me that I'm beautiful......just as I know my heavenly father feels.

I wish I could force the mirror to agree!

Treasures in Heaven

2009-04-22T16:14:00.003-05:00

With all the controversy over Miss Cali's stance on legalizing same-sex marriage, there was much talk on the radio today. While listening to K-Love this morning, the hostess said something that stuck in my mind:

"Miss California is a Christian and was quoted as saying that she "is glad she was able to step out in faith, to be examined for what she believes." Although she didn't get the Miss USA crown, she will always have a crown in heaven, worth more than any pageant award. She said in an interview with Matt Lauer: it's not about being politically correct. For me it was being biblically correct."

On another note...Perez Hilton's Interview drove me nuts! He said she gave the worst answer in pageant history and would have walked up an torn the crown right off her head had she won.........who's intolerant now? Ask an open-ended opinion question, and someone will give you their opinion.

Flash Forward

2009-04-20T19:31:00.001-05:00

Just when I found my footing a patch of ice creeps onto the road. After a financial blessing arises, so does a load of bills and a previously unknown school bill, that amount to a significant and hefty sum. But JP and I have had a new vow to one another that we came across in our devotions:

"Be faithful in the small and God will be faithful in the big."

Dear Lord,
I thank you for your provision....AHEAD of TIME, because you are God that doesn't operate by our clock and sundial.

Momma I'm a Big Girl Now

2009-04-14T21:21:00.003-05:00

There are several landmark moments in one's life when you catch yourself saying, "wow...I really am growing up." The humorous detail about this quote is that we often find ourselves repeating the quip throughout several decades in our life span. I decided to mark 10 moments in my life where I remember feeling, "all grown up" (whether they left a smile or frown remnants on my face):

1. I became the chaperone on my brother's first ride upon Dumbo's back in Disney World (I was10!- quite embarrassing)
2. After church one Easter, my sisters brought to my mother's attention that it was time I begin using an encouraging form of protection against underarm sweat
3. The day my monthly friend came to town for the first time....I knew "it must be a big deal" when my mom began calling the entire female clan of our extended family
4. When in fifth grade I was given my first razor to attack the Italian hair growing on my legs!
5. When I was able keep a food log on our refrigerator (I was 10) (a day's log once included the following: chips, 2 McDonald's cheeseburgers for Hot Lunch at school, and ice cream sandwich, a bologna sandwich....need I finish?)
6. The day I had to move MYSELF into my dorm room....I knew I was past the college newbie phase that freshman and sophomore year brought.
7. When my parents gave their approval to a handsome boy who brought over roses and asked me to homecoming
8. The day I was allowed to buy my first formal dance dress (freshman year). (of course straps were added to the strapless attire- and a flannel was donated by my father)
9 I had my own phone hooked up in my room (it was not my own phone line, but I'll never forget that Clueless phone with voice changer....which I used for much pranking. I remember calling Grandma Bea and telling her, in a man's voice, we had her mail hostage.)
10. The days following saying "I DO," when I received my first loan repayment bill and had to find my own means of insurance!

What moments in your life made you feel all grown up?

EMPTY TOMB

2009-04-12T20:00:00.001-05:00

We had a wonderful first Easter together with our families. We made to an early church service, brunch with JP's family, time with his dad's family, and then dessert and games with my family. We even gave each other easter baskets and hid them in our apartment.

It is obviously not about candy, baskets....or even family!

CHRIST THE LORD IS RISEN TODAY..............HE IS RISEN INDEED!

Worthy is the Lamb Who was slain
Holy, holy is He
Sing a new song to Him Who sits on Heaven's mercy seat

Holy, holy, holy is the Lord God Almighty
Who was and is and is to come
With all creation I sing praise to the King of kings
You are my everything, and I will adore You

Clothed in rainbows of living color
Flashes of lightning, rolls of thunder
Blessing and honor, strength and glory and power be
To You, the only wise King

Holy, holy, holy is the Lord God Almighty
Who was and is and is to come
With all creation I sing praise to the King of kings
You are my everything, and I will adore You

Filled with wonder, awestruck wonder
At the mention of Your Name
Jesus, Your Name is power, breath and living water, such a marvelous mys- tery

Holy, holy, holy is the Lord God Almighty
Who was and is and is to come
With all creation I sing praise to the King of kings
You are my everything, and I will adore You

Fresh & Clean

2009-03-23T20:27:00.002-05:00

They were right. The prep was the worst part! The 2 liters I had to drink, seemed like a bottomless well of liquid lysol....lemony fresh isn't so great when you have to DRINK IT! But with the help of Welch's and a stopwatch, my husband helped me get through the liquid mess. The many trips to the toilet were less than pleasant, and more frequent than the number of times one showers in a week!

The drama was over and we walked into the hospital ready for action! I was all prepped, and must add that I did not pass out from the IV needle! It was also comforting how gentle the nurses were with me. They said it was fresh to have an inexperienced colonoscopy patient, and one under the average age of 70. Little did I know that I would have to have an endoscopy as well. In other words I'd have tubes put down both ends...I just prayed I remained "out of it!"

I woke up, finished, clean, and with my smiling hubby video taping my recovery with a giggle. He brought me home, put me in bed and later took phone calls and when I was conscious again, repeated to me what the doctor had said while I was asleep.

Everything turned out fine. We are just waiting on some final results. God is good. He is ultimately the Great Physician and is amazing for having created SEDATIVES!

Solitare

2009-03-15T14:17:00.004-05:00

So it would seem that I have been abandoned for the weekend. My entire family, including my husband, is out of town for the weekend. It has been quite interesting, and it began as anything but relaxing. I tried to stay in the house by myself, but as soon as the sun set, I became anxious and could not sleep! I knew I couldn't do this for 2 more nights so I spent one night at my mother-in-laws and the other at my sister's....they were so sweet to take in this homeless and wimp of a woman. I don't regret being a wimp. I simply enjoy company, and really miss my husband! Marriage isn't always cuddling on the couch with every free moment, but just having him in the same house with me, makes me feel comfortable and happy. I love him so very much.

Thanks to the often scrutinized family dog, I felt protected when I was home alone. I also took the time to pamper myself....some of which was unfortunately damage to my debit card. Painting my nails, watching hours of whatever it was I wanted to watch (without having to share the remote), an amazing bubble bath, two days worth of shopping sprees, and a calming tanning session, and a calorie filled McDonald's iced coffee, gave me a few moments of uninterrupted, selfish, solace.
Despite the brief times of fear, the sleepless night, and the occasional feelings of being orphan Annie, I am proud of myself for holding down the fort! (until dad finds the electric bill for the two nights I left the lights and television on)

Now off to reality....laundry, lesson plans, and lean cooking.

They found out

2009-03-08T11:41:00.003-05:00

I hid them the best I could. I thought I had found the perfect spot. I thought no one would notice. I assumed they were as safe as a guarded treasure but..........I was wrong. They found them.

That's right. My dad found the many bins of clothes I had hidden away in their boiler room under the stairs. Just when I thought I had found the perfect place for those things I didn't have a place for, they gone and done it. Vern made a pile of all my bins and I heard the words I dread....consolidate. This may take a few weeks, but I'm up for the task and know it's necessary. According to JP I have slowly crept over into his part of the closet and now consumer 3/4 of its space. I realize it's time for some spring cleaning when I find that three of my drawers contain workout clothes, tshirts, and pajama pants alone. I always tell myself, "I can't get rid of this. I know I'll wear it sometime." Well for many of these articles, that sometime hasn't come in a long time. And that bin full of purses along hasn't been cracked open in nearly a year. Goodwill, here I come!

You did what?

2009-03-03T17:09:00.002-06:00

I am unbelieveably frustrated with the events that have unraveled on the popular, so called "reality" show, "The Bachelor."

1. Why did Jason have to dump Melissa on television?
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2. Go Melissa! For her to bring to light what an engagement means. She isn't some girl he has been "hanging out with" for a few weeks. If he has a problem, he should talk to her like a normal couple.

3. Molly, you make me sad. You are the typical girl who takes a leap for the guy who pushed you!

4. ABC, I am convinced you scripted these events! So you got what you wanted for this season....interested viewers. As for next season: you may have lost your popularity.

5. Jason those tears are not going to win over any empathy. And if they are indeed real....MAN UP!

I know I just placed myself within that stereotypical "reality" tv junkie, however, when there is a possibility of playing with someone's actual emotions, for a rating....then you have opened up a can of worms!!!!!

AHhhhhhhhhhhhh....that feels better!

Mother-In-Law

2009-03-01T19:58:00.002-06:00

I was always curious what the in-law situation would be when I got married. Would it be bliss? Or would it be Debra Barone chaos? A few days before we got married I went to have a massage to ease the wedding stress. My masseuse spent the entire hour complaining about her mother-in-law. Not only was it anything but relaxing, but it also made me feel lucky, spoiled, and sorry for that unhappy woman.
I have been blessed with a wonderful mother-in-law. I believe that having 6 years to get to know my future in-laws before I walked down the aisle, gave me comfort within their family and made me fall in love with those who had fallen in love with me, considering me her own daughter. Nancy, whose name took me a while to get used to (replacing the 6 year habit of calling her "Mrs. Howard"), has been supportive, helpful, generous, and loving towards me. I feel like her own daughter and am thankful that while others may complain about their distant in-law situations, I am blessed to feel comfortable and constantly loved by my mother-in-law. She is quite a person! She is a mother, homemaker, strength for her entire family, and constantly busily helping anyone and everyone she can reach, with arms wide open for the next!

Bring the rain

2009-02-26T23:11:00.003-06:00

It has been a whirlwind of a week. A lot has come and gone, and clouds have rolled in and out. I'm hoping you sense the symbolism. On the way to work today, with so much weighing on me and so many thoughts racing around in my mind like circus clowns on tricycles, I heard the song "rain" by Mercy Me. I heard it live in concert when I last saw them a few months ago, but it wasn't until my situation meshed with the message of the lyrics that it's true meaning hit me. The chorus goes something to the effect of:

Bring me joy, bring me peace
Bring the chance to be free
Bring me anything that brings You glory
And I know there'll be days
When this life brings me pain
But if that's what it takes to praise You
Jesus, bring the rain

I am Yours regardless of
The dark clouds that may loom above
Because You are much greater than my pain
You who made a way for me
By suffering Your destiny
So tell me what's a little rain
So I pray

The portion about "if that's what it takes to praise You, Jesus bring the rain..." struck me!

It has been weeks since JP and I have been able to sit and read the word together. We usually simply have time for a quick couples devotion before bed. It wasn't until all the chaos was stirred up into a thick cloud, that we were able to spend time in the word together. And within that, found strength amidst the rain.

Thank you Jesus for the rain...for the reminder that we cannot do anything without you...for a reminder to turn to the chief of all nature and creation to either cease or guide us through the torrential downpours we meet in life.

Hair Dare

2009-02-22T16:34:00.004-06:00

So Jp and I are both standing up in our friends' wedding in July. I'm trying to decide what I wanna do with my hair. Should I cut it...i MIss my short hair. Or let it grow so I have hair long enough for a cute updo for the wedding!

If it's long I wanna do something like one of these first two styles.

If I decide to cut it short, I would do something like thisHelp! What's your opinion?

Call the Doctor

2009-02-19T16:57:00.002-06:00

Four of my kids have had strep this week alone! I feel like the lady in the vitamin commercial..."Um...ya. I'm looking at my schedule and I can't pencil strep in this month. That doesn't work for me. Maybe next month."

I cannot be sick, again!

Love is in the air

2009-02-16T12:24:00.002-06:00

I had an amazing Valentine's Day with my husband! Although this is the first as a married couple, it is our 7th time celebrating this holiday together! This meant it would take a lot of thought to top anything done in the past. I took JP out for breakfast and got him a massage. He loved it but what bothered me is that the masseuse he had was the same woman I had right before the wedding. She talked the whole time! JP said she talked about how she doesn't believe in celebrating Valentine's Day and how she is really stressed out. That's exactly what I would want to hear if I were getting a massage to relax and as a Valentine's present. I was so ticked. I didn't tip her well. I have every right mind to call and complain. Maybe, I'll pull a Rosie and get us some free massages!!!!

JP took me to Carlucci. It is a fantastic Italian restaurant! So worth it too. For an appetizer, two salads, two entrees, and a dessert, we only spent $50! Then he gave me a card and in it is said that he was taking me to Embassy Suites so I can relax away from home!

As we drove towards the hotel I quickly realized he meant the one near O'Hare, where we had spent our wedding night. What a sweet thought! I loved it! All in all....it was a phenomenal Valentine's Day. Downside is....he has to try and top that next year. Good luck, baby!

Sick in bed

2009-02-12T16:16:00.002-06:00

So, I'm home from work sick. I don't know whether to attribute it to the fact that I'm a teacher, that I nearly passed out during a blood test the night before, or that it is simply going around. Despite the reason, I was so glad I took a half day and decided to come home and rest. There are a few things I look forward to when I'm sick:

1. my pajamas

2. sleep

3. relaxing with daytime tv

4. my husband coming home to make me feel better

5. crackers and sprite (which my mom brought me)

6. no responsibilities, no children fighting over who breathed on who, and the absolute silence of a quiet house!

Updo upchuck

2009-02-07T22:50:00.007-06:00

While paruzzing for possible bridesmaid hairstyles for an upcoming wedding in the summer, here are several disturbing, fashion faux paus I found when I typed in the words:

CONTEMPORARY HAIRSTYLE UPDO

ain't so classy

ain't so lifelike

ain't so realistic

ain't so feminine

ain't so contemporary

You can thank me later for saving you from committing social suicide by cruising around with one of these no-no updos.

Join me in asking the obvious question: "What are you thinking?!"

Diagnosis

2009-02-03T17:50:00.004-06:00

For those who know me, the topic of my chronic stomach problems is not a new one. It comes up in many a conversation and has been a huge mystery to my doctors for years. I have had numerous cat scans and blood tests run and no diagnosis was given. I'll spare you the detailed symptoms (Trust me) and just skip to the part where I say that I am tired of being in pain every time I eat and visiting the ladies room several times a day. So although this is what I picture when I hear the word "tests":

I have decided it is about that time to face the pointed metal object associated with pain. I happen to be one of those people that doesn't consider my doctor my best friend, and visit her frequently, rather I attempt to get over any flu, broke bone, or pain, without medication. But my complaints have become louder and my stomach has gotten more annoyed so I believe it's about time for my wallet to open wide and say, "ahhhhhh."

Touch This Tap That

2009-02-01T15:52:00.003-06:00

Although the title of this post sounds questionable, it makes sense with the content. I was wondering about the many ways to teach my kindergarteners easy addition. I have never forgotten the way I was taught. Although way back in the early 90's, this method has never left my brain. The "touch point" method has been engrained in my memory to this day and is what I use with the simplest of math problems. To this day I have thought of it as a genius mathematical method. However, while doing some researching today, I ran across a series of articles discouraging its use in schools today. The articles stated how many who were taught this method are slower in math, having to use the "touch method" rather than raw memorization. I finally realized how true these statements are! I feel robbed of what I believe was a fantastic and authentic math trick! It's like realizing Santa isn't real!
Needless to say, I will spare my students to embarrassment of counting using fingers and touch points, and open their eyes to a more speedy form of math...memorization.

Abandon Ship

2009-01-29T17:29:00.003-06:00

With it being nearly a month after the new year began I thought it appropriate to make a list of all the habits, promises, and goals I have made, at one point or another, and abandoned as quickly as I would a sinking ship:

Since it is 2009, here are 9 things I haven't stuck to:

1. drinking 2 full water bottles a day
excuse: refilling with nasty tasting water at school, bathroom breaks are minimal

2. not eating the skittles meant for student rewards
excuse: um....yum! "I bought them and I'm the teacher"

3. going to bed early
excuse: ya right

4. legally changing my name
excuse: how long will this take?

5. not having sweets every night
excuse: its a diet ice cream bar!

6. patience at work
excuse: try hearing this all day: "She's breathing on me!" (literally)

7. more extracurricular reading
excuse: "Doesn't a cookbook count?"

8. get more creative with low fat cooking
excuse: _____________________ (wish I had one)

9. write a blog everyday
excuse: life

Anniversary

2009-01-25T13:01:00.002-06:00

I can't believe it has been 6 months already since I walked down the alter and met the love of my life in Holy Matrimony. There has been uncertainty with money, jobs and struggles with family and career futures, but I have soaked up with joy every moment JP and I have together. Someone recently asked me how it was to get used to living with JP and I really couldn't answer with details and description. It's just like living with your best friend. You get used to schedules, toothbrush placement, and sharing the load. I am excited for the rest of my life and to see what happens in the next 6 months! Marriage and life is nothing short of exciting. Now all that's left is for me to finally and legally change my last name!

Happy Anniversary, Love!

Dialing

2009-01-22T20:32:00.004-06:00

I am teaching my children about their address this week and how the mail system works. I was going to work on having them learn their phone numbers as well (although many of them already know theirs) when I realized I didn't know which number to have them memorize. These days we might expect them to know Mom's cell number, Dad's cell number, sister's cell number; all along with their main home phone number (which may never be used). (This topic is humorous considering I couldn't repeat many cell phone numbers from memory since my phone has a memory of its own).

Crazy how the world is moving so fast, and what an affect it has on education!

Seaching for chuckles

2009-01-16T19:21:00.003-06:00

I had by far, the worst week I have experienced in my short and mild teaching career. It has been a whirlwind and more eventful than many of my horribly memorable high school faux paus. Despite being hit, having things thrown at me, being chewed out by a parent, having to attend school while the rest of Illinois' educational facilities enjoy the warmth of their homes, and being told "I will rip you in half" by a 3 foot child, I decided to find the humor. I laugh when I think about moments such as those when one of my favorites told me he was "having a hard attack."

It's moments like these when I learn to find reasons to snicker and ways to giggle despite the madness that may surround the learning environment.

Home sweet home

2009-01-06T16:40:00.004-06:00

We are home from our amazing Carribbean Cruise. I already felt blessed to be able to join my in-laws for such a great vacation but now feel privileged to be part of such a wonderful family. It reaffirmed the joy I'll have to share my children with wonderful Aunts, Uncles, cousins, and Grandma and Grandad. Its a blessing!

We had wonderful weather and stopped in Puerto Rica (Old San Juan), St. Kitts, and St. Maarten. After adjusting to the rocking feeling and receiving my sea legs (with the help of a little pill called Boanine), I enjoyed the trip. Here a few pictures of our grand voyage!

This is the reason I gained 5 pounds!

Wrap it up already...

2008-12-13T14:23:00.002-06:00

So today I begin the usually dreaded task of wrapping up some joy....in other words, using paper to disguise those presents under the tree. Although I do not live for this part of Christmas, I can't say that I mind. I buy ribbon and bows, and attempt to dress up these cardboard boxes into something appealing to the eye. I can't seem to simple cover the gift and use the three pieces of adhesive to attach the paper on the sides and bottom. There's some obsessive complex within me that feels the need to create a piece of art for the eye. This may seem absurd, but look at it this way...no matter what's inside the decked out package, it appears I have taken time in both thought and labor to wrap it in style! (Don't knock it....although this is no justification, let me live in decorative denial!)

Along the same subject, with an urge to get some of this gift dressing underway I went to begin the task and realized we had no wrapping paper. I asked JP to pick some up from the store. He came home glowing with bag in tow. He had four rolls of beautiful paper in his sack. He said, "here you go babe. And I got a great deal! At Target they were 2 for $7!" I couldn't help but stare speechless into the bag. My husband just spent $14 on four rolls of wrapping paper, when I could have bought at least 14 rolls with the way I shop. Even with my wrapping and beauty packaging obsession, I would never spend more than 99 cents on wrap. I couldn't break his happy heart though and sucked up the price tag, opened the wrap and began my task. I'll either do the shopping from now on, or send him to a specific store, with the details, price cap, and PC number to avoid another shopping event.

Christmastime

2008-12-10T19:50:00.002-06:00

It doesn't quite feel like Christmas yet. A surprising comment, I realize, considering the feet of snow piled up outside our abode. It could be due to the fact that I've been listening to Christmas music since Halloween. While listening to "Holly Jolly Christmas" today and wiping away the tears from the previous 93.9 "Christmas wish" I'd heard, I realized it still didn't quite feel like the holiday was approaching.

To attempt to remedy this disease, I'm going to watch Home Alone, drink some soy egg nog, and possibly wrap some presents. Hopefully this helps!

What do you do that puts you in yule tide mode?

DARE

2008-12-09T21:30:00.002-06:00

As I was about to prepare a head of cauliflower my sister dared me to be more creative. I attempted a mashed cauliflower recipe, a low carb alternative to mashed potatoes! My husband, surprisingly loved it. Next time though, I think Ill put less butter and less garlic powder.

Wash, chop, and steam cauliflower in inch of water in microwave until tender.
The recipe said to mix 1/4 cup skim milk/butter and the garlic powder and parmesan cheese with a blender but I used a hand mixer! A bit of a different texture but yummy!

*No Bethany....no gas!

What have you learned today?

2008-12-07T18:49:00.002-06:00

Growing up I used to consider my Papa "the man who knew everything." He once told me that he didn't know everything, but simply learned something new everyday. I thought about this today and am going to try and recall three things I learn each day and those who shared these pieces of knowledge.

Today I learned:

1) apple seeds have a trace of cyanide in them. (fact courtesy of my husband)

2) blood pressure has to do with the amount of blood being pumped through veins throughout body (again my husband's knowledge)

3) there is more than one meaning to the words in the famous Italian song: "Zooma Zooma" (fact courtesy of my Mima)

To shop or not

2008-12-06T23:15:00.002-06:00

According to the View and several newscasts, these are people I should buy Christmas gifts for:

1. mail carrier (who even actually sees their mailperson?)
2. boss/principal (thats a given)
3. parent helpers (ok I have 17...so thats not happening)
4. hairdresser & any other regular beautician (have trouble affording the monthy haircut alone!)
5. regular doctor (they make enough already)
6. pastor (my church has 13...infiniti and beyond)
7. distant relatives (an entire side of JPs family lives on the east coast...that could get expensive)
8. petcare helper (that would be JP and I- nightly takers of our family dog)
9. assitant (i have one, but not the kind that does my work)
10. close family friends (just got married, still have the guest list...it was a long one...so thats not happening)

who are 10 people you SHOULD buy for?

Down but not Out

2008-12-06T09:42:00.003-06:00

JP got some bad news regarding his education test he needed to pass. Of course, he was down and frustrated. I found it the best opportunity to pray over the situation. I prayed a prayer I wasn't expecting. I truly felt Christ pouring through my speech. I prayed a prayer of thanks!
I realized I was truly thankful for all the hard times we have been through in the last few months, and for the circumstances we are currently in. I spoke these words, "I look back and don't regret a moment of what has happened these past few months. I'm glad we didn't receive jobs we applied for, JP didn't pass tests, we couldn't afford an apartment, and that I'm at the job I currently am."
Its funny I should pray such a prayer. When every above situation arose, I found myself angry and asking, "why me?" and "what now?" But I find that I wouldn't trade for the world what it has brought us to, what faith has grown in me, and what a strong bond has been created between JP and I in the first few months of our marriage. I am not"in love" with my job, but am thankful I have one, that I have such supportive parents, and that I will be so well prepared for what comes next! Of course we would love better paying jobs, greater opportunities, our own place, and for everything to fall into place. But my usual pessimistic, overreacting self, has become a patient, step-at-a-time, take a breath, pray for peace and understanding, individual. Never before in my life have I felt such patience and ability to rely on God. JP and I know that five and even ten years from now we will laugh and thank God for these such circumstances: failed tests, anything but the greatest jobs, and living with my parents....I am just thankful that I, in the midst of these circumstances, in the present, can laugh and thank God! Through these situations and through examples such as my Dad, I have learned to be rational rather than run on emotions....most of the time!

Happiest Season of All?

2008-11-30T19:28:00.003-06:00

My eldest sister talked me into joining her in the infamous Black Friday shopping spree. Intent on finding the best sales at all times, I couldn't resist. We were up by 3 am and with a few sips a coffee and half a pop-tart, we were out the door into the Winter Wonderland by 330, in an attempt to be near the front of the pack lined up outside Kohls. Having some experience in this shopping phenomenon, Bethany knew to bring a stroller, as no carts would be left to use. When the doors opened, it was like mass chaos, a similar to scene of that when Sex and the City was released in theaters and a sea of stilettos raced for the best seats. Bethany and I had drawn up a plan of areas to hit: me, Men's Wear, Bethany would be at women's. The plan was null and void with the combination of racing women and amazing deals every which way the eye could see. With the checkout line wrapped around the store our new plan was to take turns standing in line while the other shopped. We were out of the store by 530 with more than $325 worth of items and a total of $260 spent. Our next stop was Target. That was an adventure! We waited in line while some believed that had beat the system and waited by their cars until the store opened, hoping to jump in front of the line. Security was prepared for this and stopped their efforts while those who had waited shivering in line pointed and laughed like elementary school children. We definitely had a plan for this store! I was to go to electronics while Bethany waded through the sea of carts towards the accessories. It was like the rapture. People were realizing there was no getting through the waves of carts and began to abandon their buggies in the middle of the store for the sake of reaching the good items. Others used their carts as obstacles with which to block others from the center of the aisle where the coveted items were held. I waited in line for an all important present in the electronics section, not knowing that the item needed to be paid for immediately. With sweat dripping I called Bethany and said, "Abort the stroller! I repeat, abort the stroller! I need the credit card asap!" She left the stroller in the middle of Target and came to my aid. Needless the say I was able to get one of the 50 items in stock of this product.

Its so surprising how while "Its the most wonderful time of the year..." blared over the store speakers, men, women and children alike were pushing families over with carts, knocking over displays and verbally attacking other shoppers for the items listed on their Christmas Wish-Lists. I was mistaken to think that this time of year always brings out the joyful best in people. Until this Black Friday experience, I had been naive.

Next year, Sharon, Bethany, and I have decided we will shop together on the Black Friday, wearing bright green shirts made to say something to the effect of "Black Friday Mamas" and will bring two things: shopping bags (to replace the bulky carts) and whistles (to keep track of one another's locations throughout the store).

Needless to say my jolly holiday shopping is officially finished! Thank the Lord!

Nice Country, 'eh?

2008-11-24T14:32:00.002-06:00

With my Pipa in the hospital and the prognosis not the best, we all made a trip to see him yesterday. He was on a lot of medication and therefore was not himself, barely conscious. It was so difficult to see him so helpless. I felt helpless. For the random seconds that he opened his eyes or spoke an understandable syllable, his comments were nothing short of those we have heard his utter time and time again. They all resounded to the sound of joy for his family. He muttered things like, "We did it, right! We so lucky! ( in reference to graduating college, having families, and being hard workers and loved family members). As helpless and struck with ailments as he was, he stayed in true character; caring only for his family and wanting them to know how truly proud he is of their accomplishments, who they are as individuals, and their support and strength as a family entity. We were able to pray with my grandpa, despite his lack of consciousness, i saw a smile crawl across his face as we read scripture. My dad said one thing to me as I sobbed in fear of grandpa's condition, "We will make sure he knows Jesus and that Jesus has him in his hands."

That said it all. I love my family and want my Grandfather to know Christ's love and his comforting hands are what has provided him with these treasures and this family that he constantly and thankfully embraces.

Gone with the old?

2008-11-18T21:50:00.003-06:00

It's official. My turbo Taurus of a car, is no longer considered to be Cubs175 on record. The license plate that once graced the presence of a van, then a LeBaron, and finally the red rhino, is now retired. When it was time to change my title to put under my husband's name, we decided it was less expensive to be assigned a random license plate. With that said, I felt a lump in my throat when my husband walked through the door this evening, holding the remnants of yet another piece of Janna Elton's past. Yes....I do realize how dramatic this may sound, but isn't that the purpose of a unique writer? I often get the same feeling when it comes time to throw out that pair of pants that I've had since high school, only sending them to their grave on a "fabric malfunction."

I realized today that giving up my former last name (which will hopefully, legally occur soon) goes hand in hand with giving up other parts and memories. My license plate, being one of the puzzle pieces. Who's to say that this is a negative number, however it is still difficult to watch portions of who you were proud to be, and what you were "proud to drive" (in so few words), become someone, or something else. The red Taurus that sits in the driveway is now another number among the millions of registered drivers in the state of Illinois. At least Janna Elton (Howard), the person isn't just a number to those special people around me (however the license plate fact does remain true no matter who is standing next to me). JP and I tried to memorize it tonight but it doesn't bode well that he cannot even memorize his number that he has had for several years. O well...it seemed appropriate that I retire the psuedo-name "Cubs21" in the year that I believe the Cubs retired their entire team prior to the first pitch of the playoffs. So long Cubby bear....hello 2304982304982034982039840239840293840293480239480238402

2 decades old

2008-11-16T16:51:00.002-06:00

Happy Birthday to my baby brother. Funny thing is he is 20 years old today and nearly 2 feeet taller. Not so much a baby. I love you so much, Richard Drew. I am so proud of how you are pressing through these tough years in college, impressed with your soccer skills, love your quirks and humor, and can't wait to see what God does with your life in the next few years. I love you!

Happy Birthday Uncle Dick!

Just Breathe

2008-11-13T16:33:00.003-06:00

I got some really frustrating news today, having to do with my Illinois Teaching Certification that sent me into a downward spiral.

Have you ever had something shake you and make you take everything else down with you?

I began to regret my decision to go to school out of state, my entire college experience, my current position that I daily find is a trial, and created many other "what ifs?" in my churning bowl of thoughts.

On the way home I heard a song and these words gave me another rattle:
"Even in the darkness, everything is yours."
To many that may seem abstract and confusing. To me, it said it all. I can't say that I've experienced a gallon of turmoil and hardships in my life, rather trivial trials compared to some. However, just when it seems I've picked up my, at times, fading relationship with Christ, something rocks my world. That seems to be a pattern for many, doesn't it. No cliche necessary, I understand why such moments in our lives, arrive at this particular point, but it doesn't make it easier to handle, grip, or put into perspective. Lord be in the midst of my chaos.

Look What you Made me do...

2008-11-10T21:40:00.002-06:00

My sisters and I have taken opportunities to share our commentaries on the ensembles we see ourselves dressed in when looking at past kodak moments. Usually, Mom's response is..."you wanted to wear that."

This kid, will never hear Mom or Dad repeating that excuse to him in 10 years:

On a lighter note I am so thankful for my husband. We are finding less and less time to do our devotions and usually turn the tv off around 10 pm just before jumping into bed. We decided to make a rule that the tv goes off by 930 from now on so we have time to wind down with just our own thoughts and a short devotion together. It really melts my heart to see him be the one to remember. Its now 943 and im still on the computer. "Against our new rules" he says. Time for me, GOd, and my hubby...o and a down comforter (its freezing!). I can't wait to see what God does in our relationship with our new committment to spend time with him.

hahaha Aftermath

2008-11-07T16:39:00.003-06:00

Not posting this to smear his name, just thought it was funny!

http://www.theonion.com/content/video/obama_win_causes_obsessive?utm_source

Money Money Money

2008-11-07T06:13:00.002-06:00

TOP 10 THINGS I SPEND MONEY ON & WHY:

1)food (to feed my husband and his endless stomach)

2) clothes (i can't resist a good deal)

3) birth control (don't want no accidents!)

4) my class (wish it wasn't so)

5) other people (i love giving to friends for no reason)

6) baking needs (experimenting on new recipes is a new hobby)

7) bills, bills, bills (enough said)

8) shoes (can never have enough...just when I buy one, another pair from my closet goes extinct)

9) small trips to Target (which eventually turn in to $30-$40 escapades)

10) makeup (i can't believe of expensive it is!)

REPOST THIS ON YOUR BLOG. "What do you spend money on?"

Vote for Oprah

2008-11-03T16:33:00.003-06:00

I realized something while wading through piles of newspaper headlines screaming "Vote for ________." It doesn't matter who is elected president. God is bigger than Obama...and God is mightier than McCain. I did not vote out of fear for where our country will be, nor out of despise for a certain party of person. I truly believe that no matter who takes up residence in the White House as of Wednesday, God is in control. With that said, we might as well elect anyone to office. If we as a nation can't decide who to vote for, just put Oprah in the White House. People perk their ears up more for her than our own president (Sad but true).

So I pray that God will be at each voting post, in each booth, and I know that he knows what each ballot will say. God goes before us and is always surrounding us. God bless America...please.

TOP 4

2008-10-31T18:44:00.004-05:00

A) Four places that I go to over and over: Wal-Mart, Ultra Food, Target,....the bank

B) Four people who e-mail me (regularly) Facebook, Dell (I can't seem to get rid of them), and the rest would consist of the parents of my students...regularly

C) Four of my favorite places to eat: Grandma's, Subway, Chili's, Chipotle
D) Four places I would rather be right now: Riviera Maya Mexico, on a date with my husband, chilling in the hot tub, with all my friends scattered across the country (Ambs-MO, Danielle-Nebraska, Maddie-WI)
E) Four people I talk to everyday: Sharon, Bethany, Rosie, Kim

F) Four TV shows I watch: Grey's Anatomy, the Hills, Desperate Housewives, Biggest Loser

I am an American

2008-10-30T16:44:00.002-05:00

I did the American deed...I voted today! The first election I was eligible to vote in was the re-election of Bush....unfortunately I never received an absentee ballot and was not registered to vote yet in Missouri, where I was attending school, and therefore did not get to exercise my vital American right! (I got a lot of scrutiny for that). I can finally re-claim my American identity because I proudly cast my ballot. It took all of 10 minutes and was conveniently located 5 minutes from my work. Early voting is a must!!!!! It's no surprise who I voted for....let's just say I didn't support a man who's name rhymes with..."full of drama!" The rest of the ballot looked foreign to me...full of names I've never heard of. I tried to stay on top of those running, aside from presidential candidates, but I just went with who I identify myself with. I have to say however, I was quite tempted to roll with the Green party for president...at least they don't have media drama!

My mornings, although monotonous, always begin with a chipper tone. On those days that my husband has to get up and leave before I wake up, he climbs back in bed for a hug and kiss and whispers, "I love you beautiful," before leaving. (I don't always recall this happening as i'm still in a sleep trance). His other tradition is the leave me a short note to make me smile. Today's note was the most romantic that I have ever received. It was short, simple, and sincere:

"Beautiful,
I have found out one very important thing in the last few months...

I can't live without you."

Love,
Husband

This melts my heart. I love this man...and baby, the feeling mutual!

Why I love Kids

2008-10-28T21:46:00.003-05:00

A few pictures that remind me of why kids can be "adorable?"

A few years into the future: My 3 nephews watering Mimi and Pop-pops flowers

Present day: Kent searching for a snack.(current events at Auntie J's house)

What I believe my sisters probably did to me as a baby.

Already flirting....early start!

He waited all day to do that....getting back at daddy....a favor for Mommy

Biggest Loser

2008-10-28T21:33:00.002-05:00

JP and I have really gotten into the show "Biggest Loser" this season. I believe it's for two different reasons.

1. There's isn't much on on Tuesday nights.

2. It gives one's own body image a boost.

*Guest which one was my excuse?

We ashamedly found ourselves screaming at the tv as "hefty" Heba (As we like to call her) had created a terrible tragedy out of the game. Her actions annoyed me. Needless to say something good did come out of tonight's episode. A man sent home, returned to his wife with a ring and flowers at the place he first proposed 20 years ago, and surprised her with a renewal of their vows upon his homecoming. It was the sweetest thing to see his hands shake as he asked her for her hand in marriage...again! I only want to be that happy in 20 years, and that in love...and that blessed with a still thoughtful husband. (I'm not too afraid...I know I've got a great catch!)

On another note, I have been trying recipes for under $7 and 300 calories, from the biggest loser. Last night was

Grilled Chicken with Warm Mango Salsa
SO YUMMY!

-mango
-small jalepeno
-fresh cilantro
-medium red onion
-medium tomato
-2 limes (zest & juice)
-chicken

-Cook strips of chicken or cut chicken breast or thighs into strips after cooked. (spray both sides of chicken with PAM before cookin)

-Spray onions with PAM and cook until tender
-Mix jalepeno, mango, tomato into onions and cook until warm through

-Top salsa with cilantro (2/3 cup) and juice and zest from 2 limes
-Serve chicken with warm mango salsa!!!!! YUM!

Envy

2008-10-24T21:41:00.002-05:00

Lately I've been in a state of envy. I haven't necessarily envied what people have, rather that what they have seems to be so perfect, seamless, picturesque. The current state of my friends' relationships with their significant others, their exciting lifestyles, numerous friendhsips, their future plans, their current financial status, or job they hold, often make me jealous of all they have.

Don't get me wrong. There is nothing I love more than my current state with my husband, time with my family, and being in my classroom, but no matter where we are, the devil always seems to make us think someone else has it better...that we aren't blessed enough.

Oddly enough, in the last week, I've talked to all of these close friends that I seem to envy in some way or another, only to hear that pieces of their life are crumbling. Some are at odds with future in-laws, others are broke, one is broken from the lack of substance in frienships, and another from the loneliness and helplessness felt in their current occupation. It's as if Christ is trying to open my eyes to not only my blessings, but to the fact that if we allow it, the devil can always create a state of discontent of where we are at. If we allow him to creep in, we will never be satisfied with where we are....always wishing we had a piece of the past back. This is not only the nature of humankind, but also the reason I am thankful for a God that grants peace beyond all understanding.

I've been reading Ecclesiastes this week and in the first chapter I ran across a message that talked about all things being beneath Christ's foot. That he has conquered it all; lonliness, sadness, discontent. I feel I ran across this at the perfect time- to be a ministry to my friends who I seemed to envy. Sadly, in their hard times, I find myself blessed for not only what I have, but for friendships full of trust and compassion in all circumstances.

God is good, God is big....God has conquered it all!

I thank God for my wonderful, unconditionally loving, wonderfully weird family; my adorable, patient, genuine, loveable husband; and the amazing, God-timing opportunities I have been blessed with over the course of the last year! May I wish to be in no other part of my past or future...rather right here in the present!

A Fool

2008-10-22T20:44:00.002-05:00

Don't let that previous post persuade or fool you to think that I am by any means a good cook. I should have bought the entire "Cooking for Dummies" collection.

For example: Today I tried to make Grandma's meatballs *using turkey meat*. The ended up being flat square fried pieces of meat. That's my second attempt. I had a little melt down and accidentally burned my husband with hot oil when I put water in the pan.

I officially can't cook!

Yummy in My Tummy

2008-10-20T20:20:00.003-05:00

This is for Bethany Pat-rice. Seeing as my husband and I are new to the world of family grocery shopping and cooking for two....rather I'm new to cooking, in general; I am getting the hang of experimentation. I admit, there have been many attempts gone bad (ex: Spinach/Blueberry Oatmeal bars- sources say "nope!"). However, I have come to understand the art of cooking with minimal ingredients on a tight budget.

Last week I made chicken chili. So yummy! We buy grilled chicken strips for tacos, and with those that I had left over, I cut them in cubes and cooked them with "white chicken chili seasoning (like 99 cents), and a can of white beans. You can add a can of diced tomatoes, onion, and anything else you'd like in your chili. The two simple ingredients were amazing, to the point that my husband asked for a repeat.

Also a hit are the chicken breasts in a bag. Buy the seasoning that comes with a bag, fill with fresh veggies and cook. Nothing better, nothing easier!
Another great hit are the simple baked egg puffs. It's from the "Deceptively Delicious" cookbook and is made with an added ingredient of yellow squash, which I opt to leave out. With 2 large eggs, 4 eggs whites (I just toss in the whites from some eggs), 2 Tbs shredded low-fat cheddar cheese, 2 Tbs flour, 1/2 tsp baking powder, 1/4 tsp salt...you mix them together and pour them into either 4 souffles cups (which I don't have) or coffee cups that are 1/2 greased. Bake them on 400 for 15 minutes and you have a great meal! You can even add sausage or bacon already cooked! This past week I doubled the recipe to make 6 coffee cups because JP loves them so much! Can't say I blame him!

Finally, JPs favorite is turkey sloppy joes. (really its just grilled turkey and barbeque sauce and onions). He always asks for leftovers to bring to work! It's also a leaner choice than ground beef.

I have to say, I appreciate my husband's patience as I experiment, his kind words for my chunky pudding, and quick help when my recipe is drowning. He may eat for 4 (all the more reason to find cheap and easy recipes for a family of 4)....but he's never picky!

You Know You Grew Up in the 80's If...

2008-10-15T16:37:00.002-05:00

*Sharon found this for Bethany's party, so we copied it and put it at each seat. It's so true...you know it!

You Know You Grow Up in the 80’s & 90’s if:

1. You have ever ended a sentence with the word SIKE.

2. You can sing the rap to the Fresh Prince of Bel-Air and can do “The Carlton.”

3. You know that “WOAH” comes from Joey on Blossom.

4. If you ever watched “Fraggle Rock.”

5. It was actually getting up early on Saturday to watch cartoons.

6. You wore a ponytail on the side of your head.

7. You got super-excited when it was Oregon Trail day in computer class at school.

8. You made your mom buy one of those clips that held your shirt in a knot on the side.

9. You played the game “MASH” (Mansion, Apartment, Shelter, House).

10. You wore stonewashed Jordache jean jackets and were proud of it.

11. You know the profound meaning of “WAX ON, WAX OFF.”

12. You wanted to be a Goonie.

13. You ever wore florescent clothing. (some of us…head-to-toe)

14. You can remember what Michael Jackson looked like before his nose fell off.

15. You have ever pondered why Smurfette was the only female smurf.

16. You took lunch boxes to school…and traded Garbage Pailkids in the schoolyard.

17. You remember the CRAZE, then the BANNING of slap bracelets.

18. You still get the urge to say “NOT” after every sentence.

19. You remember singing “2 LEGIT 2 QUIT” along with MC Hammer.

20. You thought your childhood friends would never leave because you exchanged friendship bracelets.

21. You owned Pokemon cards but didn’t play.

22. You ever owned a pair of Jelly-Shoes.

23. After you saw “Pee-Wee’s Big Adventure” you kept saying, “I know you are but what am I?”

24. You remember, “I’ve fallen and I can’t get up.”

25. You ever played with a Skip-It.

26. You remember boom boxes and walking around with one on your shoulder like you were all that.

27. You remember watching both Gremlin movies.

28. You remember going to skating rinks before there were inline skates.

29. You thought Doogie Howser/Samantha Micelli was hot.

30. You remember Alf, the furry brown alien from Melmac.

31. You remember the New Kids on the Block when they were cool…and don’t even flinch when people refer to them as “NKOTB”.

32. You knew all characters names and life stores on “Saved by the Bell,” original class.

33. You know all the words to Bon Jovi- SHOT THROUGH THE HEART.

34. You just sang those words to yourself.

35. You can still sing, “We are the World.”

36. You tight rolled your jeans.

37. You owned a banana clip.

38. You remember, “Where’s the Beef?”

39. You used to (probably still do) say, “What you talkin’ ‘bout Willis?”

40. You’re still singing Shot Through the Heart in your head…aren’t you?!

You know You are Obsesesed with the 80s if...

2008-10-14T11:53:00.004-05:00

I'm home sick today from school...and so bored. it's the kind of sick where you can't just lay down and relax...which means I'd rather be at work. It's hard to relax knowing someone else has my kindergarteners for the day....will they fit everything in that needs to be done, will they take care of the room....will they go INSANE?!

I thought I'd take this opportunity to comment on the AMAZING 30th birthday party sharon and I threw Bethany. It was an 80s murder mystery, in lieu of her infatuation with the infamous decade. She was so surprised...which was the point...and so difficult to do considering she can be pushy and organized to the "T." She pulled up the "paparazzi" yelling her character's name "Debbie Gribson" and was shocked.

"Wee Pee" Vermon and I

Here are some special moments and costumes (which you will hopefully never see in style again), caught on camera:

Alligator Dundee

Everyone (all the characters) before Bethany arrived

Jessica Bunny, Debbie Gribson, and Fadonna

The premier of "Debbie Gribson's" new album and fragrance: ECLECTIC YOUTH

Bethany (Debbie Gribson) being interviewed before we made her change

Home for...the weekend

2008-10-10T23:34:00.003-05:00

I am so glad to have my baby brother home (by baby I mean he's going to be 20 in a month!). I haven't seen him since he left for school in August. I miss him so much. I realize that I miss him because I worry about him...like any big sister would do. I used to be so protective of him when we attended school together. I always vowed I'd beat any one up who hurt his feelings. Now, he is the one doing the protecting! We ran to Target and made a pizza before playing Wii. It was just a realization to me that just as I have gained a "friendship" with my older sisters (rather than playing the whining little sister role), so my little bro and I have grown from sharing a room as toddlers, to spitting and biting wars, to cool vs uncool rivals, to "friends." It is the best feeling in the world and I think my brother is "da bomb!" I can't wait to see what God has in store for him. I see so much potential in his down to earth demeanor and his above average "business sense."

Near Death by Salami

2008-10-08T19:31:00.003-05:00

Today, while preparing dinner for my husband, I quickly began to eat some salami...the good, cut it yourself stuff. I began to choke and thought I could cough it up. I was wrong. I could feel it dangling both in the front and in the back. I ran and tried my best to open the door from the apartment to the upstairs. I had to crawl up the stairs. I began to hit the wall and grunt, hoping my parents would hear me coming. By the time I got up the stairs my parents were asking what was wrong. I was too shaken up to even get my hands up to reveal the "choking sign" but just kept gagging. They both jumped out of their seats. My dad kept whacking me in the back, while my mom attempted the Heimlich. This team effort was not in vain. I finally swallowed what was left and trudged to the sink to spit it out. It was more dramatic than it sounds. While crawling upstairs I remember wondering what would happen if my parents weren't home, or if the maneuver malfunctioned and didn't work. After telling JP the story his response was this: "I could have come home with you dead on the floor!" (This was sincere and caring, I understand, but not what I expected, granted I understand the reaction).

If you know Rosie, I'm sure she ran through her phone tree and already came across your number, either leaving a message or speaking with you, to share the dramatic occurence and her bravery and knowledge on the Heimlich Maneauver. I'm literally reminiscing at the moment, of a similar situation when I was 5 years old, when I choked on a carrot while chasing my brother through the kitchen. When the ambulance arrived, I was so terrified, being so young, that my soothing mother allowed the emergency team to strap my body to hers, together on the stretcher. What a Mom! What parents!

But in all honesty, it's so funny that I knew what to do if I were along (thrust against a surface), but was too shaken up and scared to remember. God's timing is impeccable and his plans are greater. Even small situations like this are reminders of why our present situation may exist (i.e. living with my parentals).

All in all....I've sworn off salami....OBVIOUSLY!

Ouch!

2008-10-07T06:08:00.002-05:00

Last night I ran into a chair while doing an interpretive dance/human video to, "Everything I DO," for JP (nothing of the sexual sort, by far!). I woke up this morning with a swollen knee...way to go. In JP's words..."O, you are so wonderfully weird."

God Rest Their Souls

2008-10-03T06:17:00.002-05:00

With a statistic like 24 out of 27 teams not succeeding towards the World Series who lose their first games in the playoffs...it doesn't look good for the Cubs. Their performance was pathetic! As soon as Zimbrano came out throwing strikes all too smoothly in the first inning...I knew it couldn't be right. I can just hear Ron Santo saying, "O, this is embarassing!"

When will that stupid goat just die! Enough with the teasing!

Life or Death

2008-10-02T06:07:00.002-05:00

My computer is about to fall to pieces....as well as my car. Please please please live one more year....one more year!

Shop Til You Drop

2008-09-28T18:36:00.003-05:00

Because I have taken a dive into the world of marriage, so have I into the world of "grocery shopping." That means that once every week or so, my hubby and I hop into our 4-door compact, and take a drive to the store of choice...meaning that which we feel has better deals for the week or meets our coupon requirements. I am amazed at how expensive a cart of food and supplies can end up costing. Our meager needs for the next 2 weeks totaled $112 this week at Ultra Foods. We have tried Wal-Mart and the like and find that Ultra Foods has the best deals. On the con side, I believe this makes my husband believe that we can spend more.."because it's on sale." Funny that this used to be my alibi and is now used more than frequently, by my adorable husband. He hates to spend money, but when it comes to feed time, his wallet is miraculously unlocked for the moment!
Our feeble attempts at healthy habits and lifestyles combined with my recent history with digestive problems don't help minimize the bill either. Every week the price tag on one or two of our necessary items, amazes me. This week's show-stopper happened to be Soy Milk. Unfortunately the buying of this product isn't something I can avoid. Although regular milk hurts my stomach I'm beginning to wonder if the $2.39 price tag for half-gallon of soy milk, hurts me worse!

What necessity on your shopping list leaves your pocket aching?

"Change We Need"

2008-09-26T06:12:00.003-05:00

While I don't usually involve myself in any topic related to politics, the recent status of our economy has me interested. I took the advice however, of Pastor Ross who said, "Turn it off." This was related to constantly worry and watching the news for updates reminders...."turn it off." It's not a matter of denial, rather than living by the verse, "worry will not add a single hour to your life."

This is also takes me to a discussion over presidential candidates. It was said that McCain asked that the debate be postponed so that a solution for the economy could be worked towards....Obama, the man who drives for "change" refuses to postpone and would rather "debate" the issue. How will debate get us the "Change We Need?"

Little Men

2008-09-21T15:51:00.003-05:00

This weekend, JP and I got to spend time with all our nephews. On Saturday, Blake came to watch his first football while Uncle J played hard for his intramural team.

On Saturday afternoon we joined the Scottberg gang to a surprise party for a family friend. Parker and Kent are so big! Its funny that they are at ages where they finally do their own thing. Parker tries to fit in with the older kids while Kent is content to keep himself busy with baseballs and anything off limits.

Then JP and I brought Kent home with us to surprise Mimi. Mimi wasn't going to be home until later so we fed Kent until....well he kept feeding himself. He opened up our fridge and pointed to the foods he desired. Then he sat and watched football with Uncle J after his bath. The way he laid on JP melted my heart and made me so glad we are home from college and are able to enjoy this growing up process with the boys!

Yum....

2008-09-19T17:48:00.002-05:00

I love fall. As I was driving I rolled down my windows. Its the season where no air conditioning is necessary, nor a blast of heat. Strolling down the sidewalk in jeans and a long sleeved shirt is enough and the smell....no not simply of bonfires, but of fall itself....is divine! Before you know it, pumpkin pie sneaks its way onto the grocery store shelves and leftover apple pie into your refrigerator. The crunching of leaves creating a beat as you walk and watching football with fellow Bears' fans (no matter the score) are ideal pastimes for the time of year. I love fall!

We underestimate this time of year. In the beautiful summer we complain of heat, in the picture-perfect winter we have ice-melting chores to tend to...but in the fall (and spring alike), the best of both worlds collides for a perfect time of year!!!

Why do you like fall?

Big & Bad

2008-09-17T19:43:00.004-05:00

There is someone in my life, so close and so special...irreplaceable I guess you could say...that truly needs to know what gives us "joy" in life and what we "live" for. It seems that the concept of family, togetherness and what blessings exist, cannot break the stronghold rooted deep in the soil around them.

May Christ abide in and comfort the situation and the soul.

Sour or Sweet Tastes?

2008-09-16T17:06:00.005-05:00

Thinking back on how the actual events and overall look of the wedding turned out, I began to reflect on what my original dreams were throughout the years...for the Special Day. Since I was little my taste obviously changed. I went from wanting an asian theme to pearls (the most nostalgic wedding icon), and from bright green dresses to a neutral shade of tan. It is funny to look back at past tastes. We say things like, "I can't believe I wore that." To this day I run across outfits or pictures and say to JP, "How did you fall in love with me wearing this?" I have gone from a prep who wore sweaters and bows to the middle school athlete to the some-what trendy educator (considering I refuse to wear the Apple Sweaters with the 3-D trees). I look back at pictures and can't believe I thought certain choices were deemed "cool," even if only to myself.
I look back at those captured Kodak moments of my childhood and adolescent years to the present day pictures of my wedding and laugh at what I was and grin at what I have become. Thanks be to God for friends and family who remain honest about

"the good,

the bad,

and the ugly

ensembles that may creep out of my wardrobe; and a sigh of gratitude to fashion, that we aren't doomed to remain the "faux paux" of "what not to wear" in society.

What were your fashion no-nos that you so vividly recall?

Happily Ever After

2008-09-14T21:11:00.004-05:00

I am thoroughly enjoying married life with my husband. Simple tasks like grocery shopping are so much more exciting. I began to feel sick today and while he was out getting gas, he stopped due to being sidetracked. He returned with my favorite "Italian Wedding Soup", brand new comfy sweatpants to keep me warm and fuzzy socks to keep me from getting sick. I fret over the status of my slowly dying car and our future living arrangements and our financial status due to the jobs we both hold, but he quickly remedies my worries by taking my hands, joining in prayer, and quickly acting on "what to do." We know that God has blessed us to this point. Providing opportunities and answers, a home and help, and know he will constantly be our "home" and help for the rest of our Happily Ever After...

Another Year Together

2008-09-11T21:01:00.003-05:00

Today marks the 32nd year that my devoted parents have been married. I can't describe the love my parents share for others, Christ, their family, and one another. Although we have recently moved into a new house, they have quickly filled it with all the ingredients necessary to make one feel welcome and doused it with prayers and fun. The importance they place on relationships in one's life have created in me the same value for friends and family. No wonder our home was always known as the 'party house' (not in the sense that one immediately thinks of).

My mother didn't necessarily fill the home with baked apple pies and home-sewn clothes, but the perfected and strategic seasoning she put into a meatloaf, the details she put into any of our school projects or daily activities, and the support she put behind every "i love you" and embrace, made me value what motherhood will be, what a wife is to her husband, and what a family is compiled of.

My father, a hard working Superman, never had a million dollars to purchase Coach purses for his girls, free air miles to send his family overseas with, or culinary skills, but his constant perseverance, Sunday omelettes, grilled bratwursts, memorable family vacation "packages" and constantly heard reminder to "make Jesus the center," have put together the ideal and concrete recipe for "Dad."

Together their faithfulness to one another, support for one another, and unconditional love for one another, combined with making Christ the center of their home and hearts, has served as the example of key components to a successful marriage that I have begun to remind myself to exemplify as JP and I begin our future together.

I hope that you enjoy your anniversary and celebrate the wonderful family that you have given so much to. We love you so much!

Hopping on the bandwagon

2008-08-26T19:40:00.003-05:00

It seems that my sisters have made interesting blog topics of the day, "FEARS and PET PEEVES." I naturally decided to hop on the hot topic. HMMM....my fears. Seeing as I'm a worry wart, this list could get lengthy. So i'll list some abnormal fears and constant fears I have.

-I fear people missing limbs ( not necessarily the people, but the thought of where the limbs go when they are removed)

- I fear sleeping through my alarm and being late for school

- I fear the stove malfunctioning and the house blowing up

- I fear a power outage while I'm in the shower

-I fear the dark

-I fear choking while trying to swallow a pill

-I fear having to dry swallow a pill

-I fear needles...

-I fear failure

-I fear losing the love of my life or one of my family members

-I fear forgetting to put on a bra (been there, done that....unfortunately)

PET PEEVES:
- Slow drivers
-Drivers on my tail when I'm already going 7 over the speed limit
-People who walk slow in malls, sidewalks, or airports...step aside!
-People who seem to take days to complete a simple task
-People who don't stop talking
-People who don't stop talking and have nothing good to say
-The toilet seat left up (a recent discovery in my list)
- Asking questions that no one responds to
-Those who can't multi-task
-When grocers rush you through their line
-When customers behind you rush you to gather your purchases
-Feeling good about a workout and then seeing a model jump on the treadmill next to me
-When someone brings in my favorite dessert on a DIET DAY gone good so far

Stick or Stuck?

2008-08-23T22:57:00.003-05:00

After reading this entry, you'll probably conclude that the title has no bearings or relevance to the topic of choice. I just thought it sounded cute. And isn't that what a title should often be?.......like a topic sentence?............something to grab the reader's attention.......?
Well I've got your attention now I hope. I do however, hope that you don't end this reading with disappointment as to its depth.

Basically I'm writing in reflection of a conversation........heated debate rather, that my husband and I had today. We were finishing up last minute touches on my classroom decor. Many objects refused to keep their place on the walls, due to the lack of adhesive material found on the only legal piece of adhesion on the classroom walls: sticky tack. While I fumbled with finding a permanent solution to the problem, JP decided that "DUCK TAPE" would solve my problem........for a while at least. He said it would only have to be replaced at the most twice throughout the year. With all that's on a teacher's plate and within her schedule, this supposed "quick fix" did not sound like the answer to my predicament. My magna cum laude problem solving skills immediately brought me to the answer: Super Glue.

In aisle 4 of Jewel, while buying super glue, our discussion sparked a debate. I realized that it was more than the type of adhesion that made these two opinions so different.....it was our sex (i mean male/female). I polled some friends on which they would choose to fix such a problem: super glue or duct tape? It was all females who chose super glue and all males who chose duct tape. Although this wasn't a perfect experiment with all the alignments, the outcome made me think (which I like to overdo on most occasions).

Men, who are often afraid of permanency (not just relationships necessarily) and always need something to fix, use duct tape to patch up the hole. They want something to do, to keep busy with, to grab their attention, to create adventure. Women, who oftenwant to bandage and heal the boo-boo, fix it and move on to the next line of jobs needing multi-tasking, as well as avoid future problems, disorganization, or road blocks, use the tightest bond to avoid leaks and future changes needing to be made. I could write a book, and can't believe I wrote and entire blog on super glue and duct tape..........................

So, although I am no psychologist, and understand this experiment concludes with generalizations and sly assumptions, am curious.........

Super Glue or Duct Tape?

Not Much

2008-08-19T07:07:00.003-05:00

I don't have much to say...
Not much to say at all...
So I'll end this with a simple "hello..."
And "I'll see ya later ya'll."

My sisters and I love to create nonsense rhymes and raps. Just a tribute to my silly siblings.

And a shout out to my Bridgie. A devout reader of my random bloggings. I know you are reading this. I love you!

Que Sera, Sera

2008-08-17T00:29:00.003-05:00

JP and I are adjusting to married life. We are learning how to share one sink (which was a change from the two we were spoiled with on our honeymooon), one toilet, one bed, and budget. All more adjustments for me than him. I can't help that I like to sprawl across the bed, unfortunately grind my teeth, and am not an accountant. We are having so much fun together. It's like a slumber party every night! We have a routine going. I'm usually done making dinner when he gets home. We eat together, and then he helps do the dishes so I can go shower or relax. It's nice to know he'll share the load. No matter how long it may actually last.......it's nice.

Today we went with my parents to the Bristol Renaissance Faire. INTERESTING. There were elephant rides, court jesters, jousts, swordsmen, jugglers, massive chicken drumsticks, and more. What I found the most interesting were the people who were not part of the faire, but blended right in with its paid employees. I'm talking about those who came dressed in their pirate gear, girls who believed a gypsy can wear half a shirt no matter their size, men in TIGHT TIGHTS, and families who dragged their unconsenting children to the faire in medieval garb. I found these people more of attractions than some of those at the faire. The sad thing is that many of these people live for this fair. Although there were a minority at the festivities, they seemed to live within the fairytales as if it were their Christmas. All in all.............worth the trip.

In lieu of the Olympics and the activities surrounding the swimming finals, I stumbled across this video with some friends. Although much of it, including the commentators is a spoof, it is hysterical!!

Today is his birthday.....

2008-08-05T06:47:00.006-05:00

We ate amazing food out, every night!

On the beach

All dressed up for a night out...isn't he so handsome

We swam with dolphins!

Our view from the balcony

The luxurious pool

At the pool

Happy Birthday, baby!

After a honeymoon it what seemed like paradise, my husband and I are easing back into reality. God blessed us through the wedding process, provided a fairytale tale wedding day and was with us and showed us the beauty of Mexico on our honeymoon. We were moved to the adults only hotel at the resort, and enjoyed every peaceful and beautiful moment of it.

Today is JP's birthday. I found myself pa rousing through the birthday cards at Hallmark only to realize I was not in the right section...I had to search through the "husband" cards for the first time. I got so excited and searched until I found the absolute perfect one! We got engaged a year ago today and now are loving married life and are blessed with a special love. I am so glad to have this wonderful and genuine man in my life. He is one special guy. I love him with all my heart, and will love him still on his 50th birthday, hair or no hair. I got up and made him waffles and a bowl of Lucky Charms (it's sad that it is so special to him- due to our lack of oven at the moment) for his birthday and last night I went and got him Chipotle, his favorite meal to take for lunch. He has been leaving me notes every morning near my keys. I love it...no matter how long it lasts. Happy 23rd Birthday to an "old" man.

I'm a married woman!!!!

2008-08-01T22:59:00.005-05:00

Ha ha....this is all Parker did. he wouldn't leave the dance floor!

Our beautiful, and yummy cake! (I didn't get more than a bite though)

Sealing the deal!

YAY! FINALLY!

Our gorgeous invitations!

My breathtaking bridesmaids (I know my sisters will comment on that one)

The amazing decor at the hall

I DO....

First dance with my husband

Some of my girlfriends...they are amazing

Doing what I love to...dance party!

Tell me you love me.........

My husband (that still so wierd!) and I just got back from our honeymoon. Without spending too much time at the present moment to reflect on the week's events all I can say is wow! The wedding day was a flawless blur. What I mean by this is it was absolutely perfect, beautiful...a dream...and yet seems like no more than a snapshot in the timeline. It flew by! I'll post more about it soon. The honeymoon was paradise! Although I aquired a bit of a stomach problem that locked JP and I up in our room for a day, it was still bliss. It quickly gave me a glimpse of what this man will be like in our future together. Because of the fever I couldn't do a thing. He had to undress me (which, I'm sure he enjoyed), and drew up a bubble bath for me, ordered toast from room service, found my favorite shows on tv (Friends), and gave me a relaxing foot rub. He brought me to the Dr. and shelled out $120 for a simple check up at 6 am and then ran to the pharmacy and walked back, just to bring his wife some relief. He is my superman and he never complained once. I can't wait to spend my life and time with him...which I should be doing now. Here are a few pictures. Be sure there are more to come!

I'm Getting MARRIED!

2008-07-25T09:20:00.003-05:00

In less than 8 hours I will be Mrs. Howard. I am so thankful for the love and support of all of our family, friends, and wedding attendants. We are so excited and can't believe after 6 years, this day is finally here! Last night JP kissed me goodnight at the restaurant, said his final, "Goodnight beautiful" before he left and said, "I'll see you at the end of the aisle!" It was so wierd to me. I hugged my pillow last night as I slept alone in what will be our bed. I realized I can hug him the rest of my life, and will never have to settle for a pillow. No matter the money missing from my pocket, I can't wait to come home to our humble abode every night, to him. I love him and am honored to be his wife as of 5:30 pm today!

I love you John patrick Howard!

OMG! I'M GETTING MARRIED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

COUNT DOWN>>>>

2008-07-20T00:48:00.003-05:00

I'M GETTING MARRIED

ON

FRIDAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

5 DAYS!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Down to the wire

2008-07-17T06:59:00.002-05:00

With the wedding a week away, I can't believe how much I still have to do. Every night it's as if we are running like chickens with our heads cut off. Yesterday I turned to JP in a moment we both decided to step back and take a breath and said, "What will I do when this wedding is over?" I know that I will be happy, excited, and love married life to this amazing person, but just like 90% of brides, I will most likely struggle with post-wedding depression. I'll never get to try on a wedding dress again (unless of course I'm in a fashion show), I'll never stop to cut out an interesting style or idea or ad in a magazine, and I'll never say the words, "When I get married..." My friend Jackie reminded me I"ll never have to go on a first date, have a first kiss, or go through the long dating stage. That I'm happy to claim! I know I have this man for the rest of my life. We picked up our wedding rings, which are beautiful, and I watched him try it on. I wanted him to keep it on as we walked downtown to let girls see and know, "Ya, he's mine." I can't wait to be his! Only one more week as Janna Elton. I've been writing my name as much as possible, squeezing every nostalgic moment out of that identity as I can.

On another note, this is something that bothered me. While listening to WGN radio this morning, that my parents so absentmindedly leave on just about every morning, they played the #1 song in America, "I Kissed a Girl" and discussed the generation and topic of the song. I couldn't believe how many people, including some of the hosts, defended the song. THey were proud to live in a free country and "liked the beat of the song." I admit, I've caught myself bouncing to the beat of such songs and repeating those same words, but it is such a disgrace for not just our nation, but apparently in Canada, Europe, and New Zealand this trend is similar with this song. God is not happy with our nation. I wouldn't be so quick to say I'm proud of it. Jesus, forgive our sinful nations.

Busy Bee

2008-07-02T07:06:00.002-05:00

Life has been busy! This past weekend my sisters and Aunts threw me a personal shower...and O my goodness did it get personal! :) I'll have to post pictures later. Last night JP and I went and bought our bed! It was such a good price, that we couldn't pass it up! Plus, it hit me that in three 1/2 weeks we will have to be moved in somewhere! I can't believe I'm going to be living with a boy! (said like Monica Gellar). I can't believe I'm only Janna Elton for 3 more weeks! I can't believe I'll be in sunny Mexico in 3 weeks from Saturday! It's all so soon! I use a lot of !!!!!!!!!!

I have no plan for the future...in sight. JP and I are trying to be content where we are at because there is a possibility it is our future for a little while. The last few months I've been stricken with fear over worry about jobs, a home, and income. It has been accompanied with many doubting questions towards God. Then I read this in my devotional (which if you haven't noticed is amazing!): Humility is grown in the desert. Even John the Baptist, while in prison had moments where he doubted who the Messiah was. Faith and fear are antithetical- Jesus expects us to trust him in the storms of life. Even those who walked with Jesus, the disciples, and saw his miracles, were skeptical and fearful in the storm on the boat.

He controls all nature and can control our stormy human situation, as well as give us peace!

Almost there

2008-06-26T07:01:00.002-05:00

I will be marrying my high school sweetheart in less than a month!!!!

All the final things are starting to be a big deal. Yesterday I went and got a small tanning package....as I laid baking in the cancer bed I thought, "I'm tanning for my wedding!"
Last night I was over at JP's and his mother had invited some friends over who make jewelery. I was very dissastisfied with the custom jewelery done for me by the bridal place. So last night I sat down and watched these women intensely create my jewelery. I had brought with me, some Swvarski crystals that used to be my Nana's. It was just the other day I was telling my mom that I didn't have a "something old" for my wedding day. These women used almost all of Nana's crystals in both the earrings and bracelet. How special will it be on my wedding day? I used to play with the necklace and earrings these crystals came on. Nana would let me try them on, making me feel like a princess. Now, I get to wear them on my wedding day.

Moving Mountains

2008-06-25T07:48:00.003-05:00

Last night as I was reluctantly reading my devotions I came across this excerpt:
Jesus told us to have faith in him, and mountains will be removed (Matthew 17:20). Maybe you are facing a personal mountain that blocks you from enjoying the blessings God would give you. There is not a mountain God cannot make into a road. He who made the mountains can demolish them. It may take time- God knows that. But he says: "Do not despise these small beginnings, for the Lord rejoices to see the work begin," (Zech. 4:10). Keep walking step by step and let God take care of the mountains.

If this isn't what I needed to hear, then I must be deaf. I am so skeptical of God's plan just because it isn't huge, allowing JP and I to start our new life in a new apartment like I had planned. Presently, I cannot see over the mountain. I cannot see a job in sight, a means of supporting JP and I, a means to financially afford anything we've dreampt of. But if I'm willing to start where God has planned for us, then I'll let Him take care of moving the obstacles and clearing a path. It's still a new beginning, no matter where we end up. God has moved so many mountains already and although small, this beginning can still be great!