A Bitter Taste

I need prayer. I have to boldly and humbly admit that I am going through a trial where all I taste in my own mouth is bitterness. I'm not only measuring my blessings based on the scales of others, but I'm becoming jealous of the success of those around me. I can't help but be afraid and worrisome over the lack of jobs that JP and I have. Reality may be that we've only been out of college for less than a month, however reality is that JP and I need jobs. When you have been so faithful, why is it so hard to see those succeed around you? It's my lack of trust, faith, and patience on God and His plan and timing. Lord, help me to keep joy and to banish my bitterness.