July 25, 2008

I'm Getting MARRIED!

In less than 8 hours I will be Mrs. Howard. I am so thankful for the love and support of all of our family, friends, and wedding attendants. We are so excited and can't believe after 6 years, this day is finally here! Last night JP kissed me goodnight at the restaurant, said his final, "Goodnight beautiful" before he left and said, "I'll see you at the end of the aisle!" It was so wierd to me. I hugged my pillow last night as I slept alone in what will be our bed. I realized I can hug him the rest of my life, and will never have to settle for a pillow. No matter the money missing from my pocket, I can't wait to come home to our humble abode every night, to him. I love him and am honored to be his wife as of 5:30 pm today!

I love you John patrick Howard!

OMG! I'M GETTING MARRIED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

July 20, 2008





5 DAYS!!!!!!!!!!!!!

July 17, 2008

Down to the wire

With the wedding a week away, I can't believe how much I still have to do. Every night it's as if we are running like chickens with our heads cut off. Yesterday I turned to JP in a moment we both decided to step back and take a breath and said, "What will I do when this wedding is over?" I know that I will be happy, excited, and love married life to this amazing person, but just like 90% of brides, I will most likely struggle with post-wedding depression. I'll never get to try on a wedding dress again (unless of course I'm in a fashion show), I'll never stop to cut out an interesting style or idea or ad in a magazine, and I'll never say the words, "When I get married..." My friend Jackie reminded me I"ll never have to go on a first date, have a first kiss, or go through the long dating stage. That I'm happy to claim! I know I have this man for the rest of my life. We picked up our wedding rings, which are beautiful, and I watched him try it on. I wanted him to keep it on as we walked downtown to let girls see and know, "Ya, he's mine." I can't wait to be his! Only one more week as Janna Elton. I've been writing my name as much as possible, squeezing every nostalgic moment out of that identity as I can.

On another note, this is something that bothered me. While listening to WGN radio this morning, that my parents so absentmindedly leave on just about every morning, they played the #1 song in America, "I Kissed a Girl" and discussed the generation and topic of the song. I couldn't believe how many people, including some of the hosts, defended the song. THey were proud to live in a free country and "liked the beat of the song." I admit, I've caught myself bouncing to the beat of such songs and repeating those same words, but it is such a disgrace for not just our nation, but apparently in Canada, Europe, and New Zealand this trend is similar with this song. God is not happy with our nation. I wouldn't be so quick to say I'm proud of it. Jesus, forgive our sinful nations.

July 2, 2008

Busy Bee

Life has been busy! This past weekend my sisters and Aunts threw me a personal shower...and O my goodness did it get personal! :) I'll have to post pictures later. Last night JP and I went and bought our bed! It was such a good price, that we couldn't pass it up! Plus, it hit me that in three 1/2 weeks we will have to be moved in somewhere! I can't believe I'm going to be living with a boy! (said like Monica Gellar). I can't believe I'm only Janna Elton for 3 more weeks! I can't believe I'll be in sunny Mexico in 3 weeks from Saturday! It's all so soon! I use a lot of !!!!!!!!!!

I have no plan for the future...in sight. JP and I are trying to be content where we are at because there is a possibility it is our future for a little while. The last few months I've been stricken with fear over worry about jobs, a home, and income. It has been accompanied with many doubting questions towards God. Then I read this in my devotional (which if you haven't noticed is amazing!): Humility is grown in the desert. Even John the Baptist, while in prison had moments where he doubted who the Messiah was. Faith and fear are antithetical- Jesus expects us to trust him in the storms of life. Even those who walked with Jesus, the disciples, and saw his miracles, were skeptical and fearful in the storm on the boat.

He controls all nature and can control our stormy human situation, as well as give us peace!