Home Sweet Home

I'm finally home for a break! I can't imagine not being able to take a break from school. Even though this new house isn't the same as the one I grew up in, the walls are different, the floor is different, the fact that my voice echos is a contrast to the voice range from my old house; I still feel that I'm home. I've realized even more than when I moved that as tacky as it may sound, "Home is where the heart is." I feel like I"m home because I can take my shoes off, put my feet up, and just be with my family. The abode still feels somewhat like a hotel, but that could just be because I'm a visitor only 2 times a semester. How strange of a place will it be to me when I'm married and living in my own home? All I know is that I"m comfortable right now to sit at this computer typing, in our house. I love that I can hear my Dad's voice down the hall and see hand-written notes that Rosie left me, sitting beside the computer, and of course watching Cobi lying lazily at my feet. Someday soon this may not be the house I live in, but wherever my parents are, wherever I can put my feet up and walk up the stairs to see my Dad watching tv, will feel like home.

Red wire, blue wire, red wire, blue wire....?

I am the queen of Indeciseiveness. Whether it's which brand of juice to buy or whether it is worth it to splurge on that $9.99 clearance top....i can't seem to make up my mind in a timely or absolutely positive manner. Well, let me say that this flaw of mine gets worse while planning a wedding. Not only am I the type to want to please others, but I also can't seem to make up my mind about anything having to do with wedding plans. When I have 3 possible bridesmaid dress colors in front of me...which to choose? Which flower? Which type of invitation? Lord, help me to just get through this. Grant me the serenity to accept that I need time to decide and the patience to tide me over when ten other people try to make the decision for me, as well as the confidence to stand up and make it myself!

Oh me, Oh my

It's homecoming week here at EU....the one week out of the year I truly dread! Getting the girls hyped up to do activities that no one rightfully wants to do, is no fun when I'm busy outside of homecoming stuff as well! My back is feeling better, thanks to the drugs I'm on. It's like I can't wait to come back from class so I can take my medicine, knowing it'll ease the pain for a few hours. Then I look forward to bed for more than sleep, but because I can take my muscle relaxer...which is heaven!!!!! Due to the doctor's orders, I"ve been reduced to simply walking on the treadmill as exercise. If you know me then you understand this request is torture! I'm always in pain after I workout, but it's so worth it. However, I hope that giving it up to heal for a few weeks, pays off...or else I will not be a happy camper! I'm excited to spend some time with JP tonight. What this really means is that it's open hall night so while he writes a paper at his computer I'll be sitting on the couch doing homework...and we will be able to enjoy eachother's company, which means just being in the same room. Although we have little time alone together, I value moments like these because just being with him makes my day! I can't wait until it's every day...only 289 days til we get married!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! A
And I'd be able to keep better track of our wedding day countdown if my sisters hadn't broken the family countdown clock that was being passed down to each sister. I think they owe me a new one!

Sleepy

So, the good news is that my back problems are not as severe as I worried about them being. I have muscle spasms up and down my lower back. As of now, I'm on a muscle relaxer at night and some anti-inflamatories, which unfortunately make me very drowsy! I fell asleep twice in church today, even though I had gotten plenty of sleep. I come back to my room and all I want to do is hit the hay. The pain is not as bad but I often wonder how I'll get through my school week being as drowsy and dizzy as this medicine makes me. Is it worth it?

Teach Me a Lesson

I'm truly enjoying what God is teaching me this year. Ironically, much of what he has taught me has been through confrontations, mistakes, and having to come face to face with uncomfortable situations. I'm learning, however, I am a confident and completely able person. I am more than able to do my job as an RA. I am able to handle sticky and unruly situations where I am the victim.. I am able to speak my mind with patience and tact. I am able to look into the mirror or the face of an adversary and know that I am mature and capable to deal with what comes my way. My experiences as an RA, my growth in the classroom, and my run-ins with life and relationships have created a confidence and a strength in relying on Christ and my ability to stand up for myself and on my own two feet. No longer will people be able to say that I allow anyone to walk all over me. I know that i"m not perfect and that I won't always have eloquence and poise in every situation, however I am equipped to deal with what life throws my way because Christ has equipped me.

Please Pray

I have had a lot of back pain for the past 6 months. I'm not sure what it is. At first the doctors labeled it as a result of a kidney infection, but it has persisted for the past 6 months. Now, when I thought it might be scoliosis, I'm finding that I have a lot of pain near my kidneys again, but none of the kidney infection symptoms. It's a lot of pain and hard to deal with when I play powderpuff and have a full day of school 5 days a week. I have a Dr. appt on Friday afternoon and am asking that you'll pray they locate the exact problem. They have yet to narrow in on the problem, which doesn't help me any. Please pray. It's scarry to deal with it away from home and to have this pain all the time.

Dirt in the Skirt!!!!

I just got done with a dirtier than dirty game of Powderpuff football. We won....but it woulda been worth it either way! There's nothing like the ever increasing feeling of intensity, sound of slushing mud underneath your caked cleats, and sliding from point A to B just to capture a chance at the opposing team's flag. I pulled a muscle and hurt my back, but all in all....dirt in the skirt= priceless! It is during these moments that we forget we are women because we are momentarily athletes, and solely that!