With three finals down and only one to go I have to get some things out. Although I am nearly done with undergraduate finals forever, and am graduating with a good GPA, I am still frustrated. I had my Tests and Measurements final today, one which I studied for for over 2 days and 24 hours. I wish this was an exaggeration. Someone explain to me why with being an elementary teacher, I am going to have to know what the heck a T-statistic, Z-statistic, sample variance, pooled variance,the difference between a one-tailed or two-tailed test is, an alpha value of .05 and .01, and things like difference sample means of a population sample is!!!!!!! The test was over 72 math questions on over 7 chapters and 4 assignments. I usually do well when studying or can grasp the overall concept, but I nearly ran out of time to take this test (as did 40 out of 50 students in the class), and for the first time in my career as a student, wrote down any numbers on the last two pages that looked familiar, threw the paper down and said, "I can't do this anymore. I give up." As a teacher, I would think that when your students as a whole class have gotten less than a C average on your statistics tests and have voiced their inability to understand their emotions of being overwhelmed, that you would take all that into consideration. I promise my future students this: that if I see my students "giving up and giving in," I will step back and take a new approach. I am so disappointed. I was about to graduate with high honors, something I have worked so hard for, and this class may jeopardize that all. I am on the border. Although I'm glad to be nearly finished with the semester, I can't seem to let go of the INJUSTICE! Yes...INJUSTICE! It's hard to talk to my family about the subject. I know that everyone goes through something like this and it seems so trivial, however, school is my thing. It's the only thing I can have pride about, that my family knows really knows me for...and makes fun of me for. Without school to have pride in, I can't seem to do school. I just thank God that this came at the final semester of classes for me.
Feels good to get that out!